Your love's all I need -new fanfic chapter 1
So I suck for starting a new fic when I'm in the middle of one but I had the idea for a while and randomly started writing it when I couldn't sleep last night. So I thought I might aswell post it. It's not very good but I hope you enjoy anyway :D and I havn't abbandoned the other one, hopefully the next chapter to that will be up soon. So if you want me to continue please say and whatever. Thanks :D
I closed my eyes and inhaled the white powder. It was really strong, stronger than I’d had before. I heard Ryan laughing at me as I spluttered. “Woah Ryan, what is that”
“I don’t really know, all I got told is that it’s good stuff”
“You idiot, they could of sold you icing sugar for all you knew”
“No don’t worry, I got if off my cousin so he’s pretty reliable”
“What the cousin that, the last I heard, was inside for selling illegal drugs”
“Yer they let him out on Tuesday”
“Oh real smart Ry, so we’re probably sniffing up heroin or something”
“Chill Sian, who cares what it is, its good stuff. I think you need a bit more babes” He laughed his words starting to get slurred.
“No ta, the last thing I need is to end up in hospital because of overdose. Anyway I think it’s starting to work, I feel dead weird. Oh and if you ever call me babes again you die”
“Hahahaha ok... babes”
I playfully punched him, it was a bit harder than intended but he would of got worse if we weren’t all drugged up. I hated it when he called me babes or something like that. Ryan had been my best friend for years but I always knew he wanted more. However he knew that that was never going to happen so he had settled for friends.
I closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths. It was really weird, on one hand I felt all warm and relaxed but I was starting to feel really sick. Suddenly I couldn’t hold it anymore and hurled narrowly missing Ryan’s feet. He didn’t seem to care though he was too high.
“Hahaha Sian, don’t worry it usually happens to first timers” He winked
“Shut up, I’ve taken way more gear in my life than you have”
“Nah, I’m mean first time heroin users”
“Oh so it is heroin then” I said not really caring anymore, I probably wouldn’t care about anything for a while, I felt really numb, Ryan was right it was good stuff.
Ryan shivered, I hadn’t noticed how cold it had got. It was only 3:30 but it was already starting to get a bit dark, I hated winter. We would of been coming out of school right now if Ryan hadn’t of got suspended and I hadn’t of bunked off to stay with him. It wasn’t like I was missing much our school was rubbish. And a load of new kids were starting today, our school had merged with a nearby posh school.
As if he had read my mind Ryan said,” Do you wanna go and throw stuff at the posh kids”
I smiled” Haha ok”
We got up and stood in the hall of the estate by the balcony thingy. It was easy to tell which people were the posh ones. They had all the proper uniform and looked all neat and tidy. And they looked terrified to be crossing through the estate. They had good reason too though, we weren’t the only ones who had the idea of terrorising them, gangs were circling them on their bikes, people were throwing stuff at them and spitting at them, stuff like that. Ryan was finding it pretty funny but to be honest I felt a bit sorry for them.
“Oh let’s get that one” Ryan said pointing to a girl on her own who was about my age. I couldn’t see her very well but she had long brown hair and deep blue eyes which I instantly got lost in. I felt my tummy doing flips, it could just be the drugs but I was pretty sure it wasn’t. From the second I saw her I knew I fancied her like mad.
“Don’t be mean” I mumbled
“What you were up for it a second ago” He glanced at me” Oh I know that look”
“What”
“You want to shag her”
“Shut up, I don’t”
“You do, I can feel your lesbian vibes going into overdrive”
“Doesn’t mean I want to shag her” I muttered
“What so you actually want to like BE with her”
“I dunno, I don’t ever know her”
“When has that ever stopped you” He mumbled
“Shut up, maybe I want more in my life than just shagging random people meaninglessly”
“Whatever, well I’m going home”
“Ryan, don’t”
“Leave it Sian” He yelled as he walked away
I sighed and looked back over the balcony but the brown haired girl had gone. I thought about going home but what was the point of that. Dad was actually sober this morning which meant he’d be all the worse tonight. All I’d be doing was hiding in my room waiting for him to stop or fall asleep; probably both.
I sat back down on the cold concrete. Ryan had left the heroin here. I thought about going back to give it to him but his mum hates me, thinks I’m a bad influence, and I don’t think she’d be to impressed with me giving him drugs, even if they are his.
I looked down at then, what I’d taken was starting to wear off now and I’d need a kick to get through tonight. I emptied the bag onto the floor and sniffed it up, a bit more than last time. I had the feeling that someone was watching me; someone probably was, hoping I’d leave some or something but I’m not that stupid... usually. I laid back, closed my eyes and let the drugs sink in
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