i'm writing this seconds after the message "so you hate me that much?" Shannan why the fuck do you keep putting me through such shit? You know why i'm so pissed about all of this, there's nothing i can do, i'm in a completely stalemate i have to sit here and just let things be. Maybe you want to know things because you still care for me, but the thing is you only care for me enough to say you care for me. You dont care for me enough to still be with me, you dont care for me enough to not kiss a guy right after breaking up with me, you dont care for me enough to not make me feel like fucking shit watchin you wrapped up with him in teh halls. I couldnt even think of doing things so terrible to you. There's not even enough care of compassion left to apologize for any of it, even how fucking bad i hurt. If you were in my shoes, you would know exactly where i was coming from. You and I can be at peace only when you realize what terrible things you've done. But it seems that you are incapable of doing that, or just dont give a shit about me anymore, and you say it's not the latter, so it must be the other one. I love every fucking thing about you shannan, but i almost feel like it's unforgivable now, because you keep doing further actions to hurt me, and it gets worse and worse. Two nights after hearing that we're not done forever, i hear that you're thinking of getting with kevin. That means that you want me to wait around as your backup. Wait until you and kevin are through and then maybe i'll get my chance again. You say that we're not done forever but never say anything about having to wait until you and kevin are through, that's what head games are.
Well Kris, maybe its just gonna be best for me not to talk to you then. I mean yeah I dont want you to hurt, so ill no longer touch Kevin around you. I only want to be fair to you because you know that I don't want you hurting. Have a nice like Kristoffer.
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