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I've been talking to Daniel like all night..
i miss that kid
:-/
This is the text he just sent me:
It's hard- we used to talk/hang outlike every day. Now, well never. So u should come sunday. We'll make out or better. Like old times.
he wants to hang out on sunday and go mini golfing or something like that.. the thing is i havet his stupid church reunion for the church my grandpa started
Reasons why i don't want to go:
1. These people ADORED my grandpa, and when he got cancer and my mom and i moved him down here so we could take care of him- they decided that we "Stole him"away. wtf- he was MY grandpa, my stability.. The person who meant the most in my life.. the reason i am who i am today.. what makes them think they had ANY claim on him- they stole his time, and all his energy Even when he was in bed in the hospital they still showed up wanting him to solve their problems. Without their baggering maybe he'd have been able to get enough rest.. The thing is, i know it's wrong to feel this way.. He was their stability also, they depended on him.. and they had no where else to turn.
2. They're convinced i'm going to hell because i'm no longer religious.. and they don't make a secret out of their thoughts either... and i'm so sick of hearing it.. They looks they give me while asking me what i'm doing with my life.. the fact that when i explain my college/gradschool plans it all means nothing because i'm not getting married and having children and being a good homemaker- i'm worthless to them.
3. They think i'm a slut. no joke. I may mess around, but in reality.. i dont dress like a slut, and i don't act like one.. and honestly i find it offensive that just becuase i dated in highschool they lable me like that.
I don't want to go. I want to hang out with Daniel... Someone who accepts me for the imperfect person i am.
i miss that kid
:-/
This is the text he just sent me:
It's hard- we used to talk/hang outlike every day. Now, well never. So u should come sunday. We'll make out or better. Like old times.
he wants to hang out on sunday and go mini golfing or something like that.. the thing is i havet his stupid church reunion for the church my grandpa started
Reasons why i don't want to go:
1. These people ADORED my grandpa, and when he got cancer and my mom and i moved him down here so we could take care of him- they decided that we "Stole him"away. wtf- he was MY grandpa, my stability.. The person who meant the most in my life.. the reason i am who i am today.. what makes them think they had ANY claim on him- they stole his time, and all his energy Even when he was in bed in the hospital they still showed up wanting him to solve their problems. Without their baggering maybe he'd have been able to get enough rest.. The thing is, i know it's wrong to feel this way.. He was their stability also, they depended on him.. and they had no where else to turn.
2. They're convinced i'm going to hell because i'm no longer religious.. and they don't make a secret out of their thoughts either... and i'm so sick of hearing it.. They looks they give me while asking me what i'm doing with my life.. the fact that when i explain my college/gradschool plans it all means nothing because i'm not getting married and having children and being a good homemaker- i'm worthless to them.
3. They think i'm a slut. no joke. I may mess around, but in reality.. i dont dress like a slut, and i don't act like one.. and honestly i find it offensive that just becuase i dated in highschool they lable me like that.
I don't want to go. I want to hang out with Daniel... Someone who accepts me for the imperfect person i am.