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It may all be over. This may be the fast start of a slow downfall for me. I know I'm failing. I've been told. Although my expression may hide the fact I absorb what people say I do actually listen. I know what I'm doing with my present and future isn't right, but I suppose it is what it is.
Whenever I tell anyone I don't have the motivation all they can seem to say to me is "then get some". If it was that easy for me to make myself do things I should be doing I would have already done them. I would have passed math, physics and possibly a handful of other classes.
Today was the continuation of my 6 day weekend. Although I don't have anything to show for my absence from school and my house I've enjoyed (almost) every moment of it.
My hope is that eventually I will start feeling motivation again. But I'm afraid until then NOTHING is going to be able to push me to get my shit together. Not my parents or my friends. I wish I could say I had more hope in myself, but honestly I really don't.
I seem to have accepted the fact that right now things just aren't happening for me. That's the plain and simple of it. I'm just not "good" right now.
I guess that's that.
Whenever I tell anyone I don't have the motivation all they can seem to say to me is "then get some". If it was that easy for me to make myself do things I should be doing I would have already done them. I would have passed math, physics and possibly a handful of other classes.
Today was the continuation of my 6 day weekend. Although I don't have anything to show for my absence from school and my house I've enjoyed (almost) every moment of it.
My hope is that eventually I will start feeling motivation again. But I'm afraid until then NOTHING is going to be able to push me to get my shit together. Not my parents or my friends. I wish I could say I had more hope in myself, but honestly I really don't.
I seem to have accepted the fact that right now things just aren't happening for me. That's the plain and simple of it. I'm just not "good" right now.
I guess that's that.