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so was meditating just a little while ago. I have been doing it a lot lately. calms me. breathing in. the breathe is all that matters. memories, situations, reality floats in one ear out the other. tonight was different though. it got to me. i collapsed forward. breathing in my hands. forgot how easily everything can catch me. i shouldn't forget. will 2morrow/today i have the nerve? the nerve to build my future? i just calmly re-sat up. got into my triangle and finished my session. i want/need to sleep and usually the meditation puts me in that zone to sleep peacefully but i don't think tonight is gonna be a peaceful sleep. not even sure if it will be sleep at all. maybe i'll do a "sane" normal journal later. maybe not. more likely not. u may see me but who are you truly seeing. is it wat you want to see?