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I can't get over u. I try. and i know seeing you would just make it worse to me cuz i know i can't have u. I could never have u. I don't like that. even when i can look at something u say or write in an away message or an action u did and it can be innocent enough yet my mind spins amazing stories that just hurt myself. I know your out parting, and i know your hooking up with guys and stuff and to me it sux cuz i know it's happening. and you can say it's not true but i don't nkow if i believe it cuz u've said that to me in the past when it wasn't true and on top of it your over the top cute and u have guys hang around you all the time. I can't see the situation NOT happening. In all essence you scare me. You scare me half to death because i don't know what to do with my life as a whole and yet u can clear my mind and make one problem that is equal to everything else. I'm going mad and i don't know if it's really that much of a good thing. Yet in all essence i don't know if i want it to go away since i always put myself back into it. I always want to see u coming bak to me but that is just something that will never happen and instead of leaving it be and walking away i put myself back in the mess of things and i screw it all up again. So plain and simple what you needed to hear. you scare me.
i like these quotes: "Sometimes knowing the right question is the only way of getting the right answer."
"An answer can never be given to the question that is never asked."
"You can always get the answer your looking for as long as you know how to ask the right question"
Obsesive compulsiveness much. lately i've been washing my hands and scrubbing at them till they turn almost blood red. i still don't think it's OC for the fact that i'm not doing it cuz i feel they are on clean. i just lose track. i stare at something and just zone out so bad that i lose track. Am i really losing it?
i like these quotes: "Sometimes knowing the right question is the only way of getting the right answer."
"An answer can never be given to the question that is never asked."
"You can always get the answer your looking for as long as you know how to ask the right question"
Obsesive compulsiveness much. lately i've been washing my hands and scrubbing at them till they turn almost blood red. i still don't think it's OC for the fact that i'm not doing it cuz i feel they are on clean. i just lose track. i stare at something and just zone out so bad that i lose track. Am i really losing it?