my broken heart has no use..
I guess promises are best unsaid--Ashlee simpson..
gar, so yesterday i called into work. I told them my truck wouldn't start...hrm, i'm a loser. I just wasn't in the mood to work. So yup...
Yesterday was okay, i hung out with levi, the entire day. I dunno just here lately nothing is going right. I really haven't updated in like 4 million days, so i'll start from when i remember. Wednesday, the half day...was probably one of the worse days of my life. Seriously nothing went right..Thursday i layed out of school, and was going to go fishing with levi, but realized that fishing season was closed. Friday, umm i worked. What fun huh?
Last night i cried, a lot. Actually i probably haven't cried that much in forever. The whole way home from levi's, i felt like any second i was going to wreck and like die. It was such a weird feeling like, it scared me..it was really eerie. So I drove like 35 the whole way home. Like the hairs on my arm were like standing up. it was strange.
I have decided to boycott, saying "i love you" only to my parents. Its just a four letter word, that people only say. I honestly don't believe their is love in this world, or it would be a better place. I hate it, its such a fake word, and i feel like a fake saying it. So i decided to not, because i care for levi a lot, but i know its not love. Its not here, its just something someone made up...
I can't wait to graduate. Everyone lets you down, no matter who u are, there is someone u don't expect to let you down. Maybe its just me, i put people so high up, that when they do finally let you down, its like a major blow to the face. I also talkin about myself, i let people down. I'm a failer in life, nothing great is ever going to happen. I want to make a difference in this world, but i have decided that will never happen and i should just stop talkin about it.
Some time life is addiction, some times it hurts like hell, and sometimes you just can't get enough.
hrm. god, i swear..i can't wait to get away from here. Spring break is coming up, and i pray to go nothing bad happens. I want a care free break. I'm sick of EVERYTHING.
i hate life. its to hard, and theres UGH..i'm tired of whining about everything, thats all i do anymore...hrm
peace
gar, so yesterday i called into work. I told them my truck wouldn't start...hrm, i'm a loser. I just wasn't in the mood to work. So yup...
Yesterday was okay, i hung out with levi, the entire day. I dunno just here lately nothing is going right. I really haven't updated in like 4 million days, so i'll start from when i remember. Wednesday, the half day...was probably one of the worse days of my life. Seriously nothing went right..Thursday i layed out of school, and was going to go fishing with levi, but realized that fishing season was closed. Friday, umm i worked. What fun huh?
Last night i cried, a lot. Actually i probably haven't cried that much in forever. The whole way home from levi's, i felt like any second i was going to wreck and like die. It was such a weird feeling like, it scared me..it was really eerie. So I drove like 35 the whole way home. Like the hairs on my arm were like standing up. it was strange.
I have decided to boycott, saying "i love you" only to my parents. Its just a four letter word, that people only say. I honestly don't believe their is love in this world, or it would be a better place. I hate it, its such a fake word, and i feel like a fake saying it. So i decided to not, because i care for levi a lot, but i know its not love. Its not here, its just something someone made up...
I can't wait to graduate. Everyone lets you down, no matter who u are, there is someone u don't expect to let you down. Maybe its just me, i put people so high up, that when they do finally let you down, its like a major blow to the face. I also talkin about myself, i let people down. I'm a failer in life, nothing great is ever going to happen. I want to make a difference in this world, but i have decided that will never happen and i should just stop talkin about it.
Some time life is addiction, some times it hurts like hell, and sometimes you just can't get enough.
hrm. god, i swear..i can't wait to get away from here. Spring break is coming up, and i pray to go nothing bad happens. I want a care free break. I'm sick of EVERYTHING.
i hate life. its to hard, and theres UGH..i'm tired of whining about everything, thats all i do anymore...hrm
peace