STAY TUNED.
I hate the feeling of being overwelmed..when there are too many things to be said and you don't know where to start or end, and when no matter how hard you try it all seems to jumble together to form a mess of words. There is no rhyme or reason as to why I'm back to using my eljay. It's been a while.
So bare with me while I try to organize my thoughts.
School. One place that I am perfectly fine with not seeing, nor hearing about until september. As well as most of the people in it. The past year of it hasn't done much for me. Nothing special happened, it was just plain and simply a boring waste of each day. The people who I became close with I really have come to appreciate, and others I just have no use for. It's so weird to think about how much people change from year to year, so much that you don't even know them anymore. The funny part is, there is only a two month gap between summer and a new year. I realize now that all year I have walked passed people in the hallway with a nod of the head, if that. I miss 9th grade. I didn't even like any of my teachers..or classes. I usually get sad toward the end of each year, this year was just different. I suppose it's win or lose and you don't always get your way. I hope this year is much better.
Summer break. I can't even begin to explain how badly I anticipated this summer. I cracked down on school work and put in all of my effort and then some just to be assured that I could have a free summer. Not that it hasn't been like that for years, but I just needed this summer. I know we all did. So now that it's here I feel much better, but at the same time awkward. To start off, the first saturday of the summer was my Sweet 16. It was fun for those who were there and I really appreciate everyone who made it. However, it was a learning experience, and I probably won't waste my time or money on a party like that until my 18th birthday. After the party I had plans to go to Steph's for the night, but that fell through. Pat ended up staying with me to clean a bit. The next day was just a lay-around-and-do-nothing day until later on when we all went to Mt. Fuji for dinner. After that I headed back to Steph's (finally) because we were leaving for the beach that following monday. We made ONE mistake that night. You can be assured that I won't touch that shit EVER again. Who knew that it would alter our entire summer. Now we all have to face the consequences and punishment. That was just the beginning. Aside from a "sandy" ride down to the station and whack-job night in a holding cell the beach was great. I love those people. I won't be doing much of anything for a little while. I'm sure it will blow over, just not soon enough. On a good note, Steph and I are still off to FL. on July 21st as planned. I'm pretty disappointed that she's going home on the 29th and I'll be on my way to Europe for a week and a half. I'm driving to Miami on the 29th to get on my flight from there to England. I'll be staying at my dad's friends house in London for a week, touring all over the place and then taking the Euro-train to Paris for two days. I'll be back in NY on August 6th. This all came as a suprise to me being as I was the only one who didn't know about it, it was part of a gift that my dad gave me for my birthday. Don't get me wrong, I'm greatful for it, it was just unexpected. When I get home, hopefully things will be more like normal around here. I need to see Zach. I need this summer to be awesome.
-Ashley