I'm going through a difficult time...

[xmykisskillsx]

Right now.
Things are happening to me that I thought would never happen to me.
And I'm scared.
I want to get rid of this thing, but in a way I want to keep it...

I feel myself going through this sort of metomorphisis.
I'm changing, and I don't know if its for the better, or if its for the worse.
I really hope its for the better of the two.

I really want to scream, and destroy things.
But than I want to remain calm, and collected.
Not destroying anything... Maybe paint a picture or two.

I also never thought I'd love again, and here I am in love....
And it scares me, because I was in love before...
I was used, and cheated on.
I'm only afraid of the same thing happening again.
After that I put up this non-breakable wall around my heart.
I thought no one could make it crumble down, but now there is someone.
And he's showing me that its ok to love, and be loved.

I just hope that the relationship I'm in now lasts for a long, long, long, long time!