I seriously must be bad luck...
...atleast when it comes to "love" or relationships.
Not one person who is single stays interested in me for longer than a few weeks.
The only people who seem to pay any attention to me are those who have someone, whether it be bf/gf, engaged or even married (or live states away).
If they're taken they're interested.
I, and I know this is horrible of me to admit or do in the first place, but i've actually followed through on some of those interests.
For the sake of attention? No.
For the sake of not being alone.
Now, am I the one who should get all the blame?
I don't know anymore.
Depends on who you ask.
Ask a few ex's and old best friends and they'd probably say I do.
But do I really DESERVE it?
I'm still in the mindset that somehow I've become a scapegoat.
To this day I still see it.
Did I complain once when three of my ex best friends married three of my ex's?
No.
Yet if I show interest in anyone someone else has dated that i know, they already "know/know of me".
Like i'm a fucking leper.
I don't get it.
Is it honestly this hard to find someone I can connect with?
This feeling was a main reason I didnt go to my HS 10 year reunion.
(well that and feeling like a failure.)
Ninety percent of the people I went to school with are married with children. (love and marriage, love and marriage... You were thinking it to, admit it.)
And to be single AND not have a career, my own place, someone to go with, etc..
I felt like, "What's the point in going?".
I'll just feel worse.
Which, honestly, I don't see how I could feel.
Hell, recently I've tried to reconnect with some old people I used to date or even friends I hung out with.
And what do i get?
Ignored, bad-mouthed or felt sorry for.
I just want my old life back.
Fuck, I'd settle for anything resembling a life.
Good or bad.
Anything has to be better than nothing, right?
/endrant.
-T
Not one person who is single stays interested in me for longer than a few weeks.
The only people who seem to pay any attention to me are those who have someone, whether it be bf/gf, engaged or even married (or live states away).
If they're taken they're interested.
I, and I know this is horrible of me to admit or do in the first place, but i've actually followed through on some of those interests.
For the sake of attention? No.
For the sake of not being alone.
Now, am I the one who should get all the blame?
I don't know anymore.
Depends on who you ask.
Ask a few ex's and old best friends and they'd probably say I do.
But do I really DESERVE it?
I'm still in the mindset that somehow I've become a scapegoat.
To this day I still see it.
Did I complain once when three of my ex best friends married three of my ex's?
No.
Yet if I show interest in anyone someone else has dated that i know, they already "know/know of me".
Like i'm a fucking leper.
I don't get it.
Is it honestly this hard to find someone I can connect with?
This feeling was a main reason I didnt go to my HS 10 year reunion.
(well that and feeling like a failure.)
Ninety percent of the people I went to school with are married with children. (love and marriage, love and marriage... You were thinking it to, admit it.)
And to be single AND not have a career, my own place, someone to go with, etc..
I felt like, "What's the point in going?".
I'll just feel worse.
Which, honestly, I don't see how I could feel.
Hell, recently I've tried to reconnect with some old people I used to date or even friends I hung out with.
And what do i get?
Ignored, bad-mouthed or felt sorry for.
I just want my old life back.
Fuck, I'd settle for anything resembling a life.
Good or bad.
Anything has to be better than nothing, right?
/endrant.
-T
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