Hmm...
Not too sure how i feel...but i kinda' know its not good. Today has just been a shitty day. I woke up this morning in absolute agony, then went to my dads. He went out and then came home and went to sleep so i didn't even get to see him...which sucked. Joe was being an arse...so i brought him home to annoy me here instead. I fell out with my mum, phoned Jen and Brad...and then came on here. I literally feel on the verge of tears, for no fucking reason. Yesterday was OK. We went swimming [Me, Brad, Jen and Lewis] and it was good! I felt really fat and self-concious, but that got better as time passed. We then went to Brad's where I argued with some pathetic Chav over MSN [how dare she call Lewis "deformed"? SHE'LL BE DEADD!!]..I came home, cause' i felt abit shitty, emotions wise...then cried myself to sleep. Joy of all joys. Brad said to me last night "I don't even notice anyone else is here when Jen is..its just like..WOAHH..JEN!!" So i was kinda' like "Uhm...thanks?". I wasn't offended as such, more abit...i dunno'..shocked lol?
I'm kinda' glad that i'm not going out tonight...i wouldn't be much good as company. I'm too..emotional. I'd just ruin everyone elses night and mine probably wouldn't be much good anyway. Oh god why the fuck am i crying!? I'm so god damn pathetic. I literally have no reason to be upset, nothing at all negative has happened. So my stomach hurts, is it really enough to cry over!? Damn, i suck. Fucking hell it's warm in here. I feel all groggy and exhausted.
The amount of pain i'm in, if i didn't know better, i'd think that I was pregnant or something...but..why would i be lol? The world is not blind. I better go before i get all bitchy about myself, i only annoy people when i get like that.
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To Jen and Brad,
Sorry if i was a massive bitch last night, or if i was abit whingy, i was just feeling abit crap. Sorry dears..Love ya's both!! xxx