Oh fucking BOV.
Yeah so the past few days have sucked. I'm sick of playing the "i don't care" card. Because the truth is..i do. I'm bored of having to pretend i'm OK..I'd tell you what's happened to get me like this..but i can't be arsed. I can't even be arsed to type this, but ya' know...i need some form of venting. So i got my hair cut, and it's horrible. I bought a new hoody, "Age 13" and it's too big. Damn i'm getting thin. OK so i kinda' wish i was. The truth is i still think i'm fat, i hate being told otherwise. I miss Rich, and love him so much. I haven't spoken to him properly for awhile, and over the past few days i've needed a male presence in my life...and theres been no-one there. I know that given the chance, he would be. But ya' know..distances suck. I need a right here,right now guy. And the one i'd like, is already taken. Damned life huh? I suppose i'll find someone..eventually. I've been single for over two fucking years now...i'm sick of it. It gets to a point where you think its your fault. You begin to think your deformed in some way, that makes relationships impossible. Trust me to fancy someone who has a girlfriend though...stupid enough for only I to do. I'm going to go straighten my hair, to see if having a SLIGHTLY better hair state makes me feel any better. Bye xxx [Sam]