life, pain, effexor
Vicodin and Choke. I think that's how I'll end up spending my night. And hopefully seeing friends. Rizzo's supposed to call me and then maybe we can get Mary and Danai. Craig's staying in for the night, he has school stuff and he's tired. I feel somewhat depressed, but mellow at the same time. Choke is due tomorrow so I hope I finish it.. if not they'll probably let me check it out again.
Everyone's schedule at work is fucked up this week.. myself included. I mean I'm getting decent hours, but instead of working a few long days, like I normally do, I'm working five days, but shorter periods. I don't like that. More gas, more days being taken up.. not fun. So I either have work or school every single day this week. Sometimes both.
My pain and fatigue have been bad these past few weeks. My doctor prescribed me Vicodin, which helps, but I'm not supposed to take it that often, and I feel like I could use it everyday. But even if I did, I would quickly develop a resistance toward it and it would no longer really help. That happened with my mom really quickly. I just like the energy it gives me. When I'm on Vicodin I feel awake and refreshed, I feel like I finally have the energy that I should naturally be feeling, but no longer do. I wish I didn't need meds to feel "normal". It's really depressing. And we don't even know what's causing me to feel like this. It could be Lyme Disease, a type of chronic Mono or symptoms of my depression. Or maybe a combination. I just wish I knew how to treat it, not just the symptoms, which can only slightly masked for a minimal period of time.
My mom's not getting any better either. In fact she seems to continue to get worse. Although she is finally off of the Effexor (the drug from hell), and I am quite thankful for that. I don't know how the drug company can get away with having something like that on the market, and not even warning people about the detrimental effects of trying to get off. It took my mom years just to get off the damn drug that never even helped her in the first place. She originally was prescribed Effexor, an antidepressant to help treat her pain and maybe give her more energy. It didn't do any of that, and instead caused her to gain around 40 pounds in one year. Having extra weight when you have a disease like my mom only makes it harder on your body. But getting off proved to be hell. Worse pain then she had ever experienced. Debilitating pain. And this wasn't even stopping cold turkey, this was gradually weaning off. For around a year she was down to half of a pill of the smallest dosage a day, but when she would try to stop completely her body would go through hell. I don't know how this drug is legal. I called up the drug company, and they basically admitted off the record that this was a problem, yet they continue to push this drug without warning users of the terrible withdrawal. I've been on message boards relating to this, and some people are never able to get off. Others have to be hospitalized while trying to get off. And in one woman's case, the doctors didn't believe that this type of withdrawal would be caused from a prescription medication and treated her like a junkie. It's absolutely terrible. I'm just so relieved that my mom was finally able to completely get off of this terrible drug.
Sorry for making this entry so long.. I just needed to vent I guess. And to warn others about Effexor. NEVER TAKE IT
And I suppose Vicodin makes me more talkative,or in this case, write more.
Everyone's schedule at work is fucked up this week.. myself included. I mean I'm getting decent hours, but instead of working a few long days, like I normally do, I'm working five days, but shorter periods. I don't like that. More gas, more days being taken up.. not fun. So I either have work or school every single day this week. Sometimes both.
My pain and fatigue have been bad these past few weeks. My doctor prescribed me Vicodin, which helps, but I'm not supposed to take it that often, and I feel like I could use it everyday. But even if I did, I would quickly develop a resistance toward it and it would no longer really help. That happened with my mom really quickly. I just like the energy it gives me. When I'm on Vicodin I feel awake and refreshed, I feel like I finally have the energy that I should naturally be feeling, but no longer do. I wish I didn't need meds to feel "normal". It's really depressing. And we don't even know what's causing me to feel like this. It could be Lyme Disease, a type of chronic Mono or symptoms of my depression. Or maybe a combination. I just wish I knew how to treat it, not just the symptoms, which can only slightly masked for a minimal period of time.
My mom's not getting any better either. In fact she seems to continue to get worse. Although she is finally off of the Effexor (the drug from hell), and I am quite thankful for that. I don't know how the drug company can get away with having something like that on the market, and not even warning people about the detrimental effects of trying to get off. It took my mom years just to get off the damn drug that never even helped her in the first place. She originally was prescribed Effexor, an antidepressant to help treat her pain and maybe give her more energy. It didn't do any of that, and instead caused her to gain around 40 pounds in one year. Having extra weight when you have a disease like my mom only makes it harder on your body. But getting off proved to be hell. Worse pain then she had ever experienced. Debilitating pain. And this wasn't even stopping cold turkey, this was gradually weaning off. For around a year she was down to half of a pill of the smallest dosage a day, but when she would try to stop completely her body would go through hell. I don't know how this drug is legal. I called up the drug company, and they basically admitted off the record that this was a problem, yet they continue to push this drug without warning users of the terrible withdrawal. I've been on message boards relating to this, and some people are never able to get off. Others have to be hospitalized while trying to get off. And in one woman's case, the doctors didn't believe that this type of withdrawal would be caused from a prescription medication and treated her like a junkie. It's absolutely terrible. I'm just so relieved that my mom was finally able to completely get off of this terrible drug.
Sorry for making this entry so long.. I just needed to vent I guess. And to warn others about Effexor. NEVER TAKE IT
And I suppose Vicodin makes me more talkative,or in this case, write more.