Aug 26, 2005 05:21
If anyone posts annonymously to this entry it just shows that what I'm saying is true. So don't do it. Because when I find out who posted what I will confront you and make it known that I'm pissed off at you. :o)
So this is for all you sucky people that think what you say matters to me. I am inlove with Timothy O'Connor and I would never do anything as ridiculous as I've been hearing just to fucking hurt him. I find it even more ridiculous that people don't know me at all even when I think they do. The only thing he'll tell me about the person that claims I've done more this summer with anyone than what I've told him is obviously a 'close friend' of mine. He won't tell me who, but why else would it bother him so much?. Well, this is what I have to say to you :o) Don't go making asumptions about me just because you want to make me out to be a horrible person. I can't guarantee that you have no selfcontrol but I can guarantee that you have less than I do. I'm seventeen years old and I'm still a virgin, I've never spoked anything, and I think drinking is a sucky excuse to feel better. All the urges that most people have givin in to I still haven't. I'm not saying that to make myself seem better than anyone 'cause I really personally don't care that much if my friend have/do/are doing those things or not. It's your choice not mine. But don't go telling someone that I love, that I've always been one-hundred percent honest with that I've probably done more than I say and that I'm not worth it. That just makes you an insanely sucky person and it's not appreciated and obviously should make it known to me that I can't trust you. I'm sick of being stabbed in the god damned back about things like this over and over again. The least you could do is talk to me before you say shit like that to see if you have any information to back you gayness up. Any one that I've talked to at all this summer can tell you, I want to be with Tim. I don't want to be going through this. But at this point there's nothing left to do. We're working shit out little by little and when and if he says he wants to be back with me I'll be right there waiting for him. It's the least I can do since he's waited for me. I fucking love him and nothing anyone says will change that. So fuck you...
Timothy, I do love you. And I will wait for as long as I have to to be with you. So when I think we can stand again, strong, I'll tell you. Then I'll wait for you to give it the go. You're my fucking world and I'd be so lost with out you. If you don't know that right now I might as well just go jump off a cliff and wait for my doom to meet me at the bottom. I love you.