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Dear Diary,
There is so much yet so little to tell. First: My best friend got married. WTF!?!? That was the event of a lifetime. well... not the actual event which was actually quite small and ahem... country-ish.... just the fact that the person that has known me the longest and has been such a close friend to me has taken a compleatly different turn in her life and started a new one with a "new" best friend.Thats cool.. its as it should be...Ill get there eventualy.
So I feel like this is the end of the begining.. or the begining of the end... idk which I like better. Here we go... its the end because its senior year.... oy vey! And at the same time its the begining because my life at school will be comming to a close and Ill get to go play like Im an adult or something queer like that. (haha... play... just not play because technicaly I will be an adult... ummm.. not sure how I feel about that.)
anyway... I can empathize with my buddy jar. I miss being abroad at Wroxton... even though it was probably the hardest thing I have ever done in my life... both scholasticly and socialy... I felt as though I had some purpose there. Summer alows lazyness... and I cant stand that. All Ive done this summer is be wedding planner for my friend and run old reliatives to the Dr. and such. (and yes, Im adding that to my resume as being a "personal care taker"... ha!) so anyway... its depressing. I like being at school... and learning and being with the most important people in my life... my fam.... the fam that put itself together and has in so many unknowable ways, touched my life beyond anything I could have ever dreamed of. I miss everyone... more than I care to acknowledge. Because if I dont think about it... if I keep busy then it doesnt hurt. The hurt comes late at night... when the world is asleep and we who are alone are left with our thoughts, memories, and hopes. But I am blessed... because in that time I know someone who is always there for me. And for him, I am soooo greatful. - I love him -
the end.
There is so much yet so little to tell. First: My best friend got married. WTF!?!? That was the event of a lifetime. well... not the actual event which was actually quite small and ahem... country-ish.... just the fact that the person that has known me the longest and has been such a close friend to me has taken a compleatly different turn in her life and started a new one with a "new" best friend.Thats cool.. its as it should be...Ill get there eventualy.
So I feel like this is the end of the begining.. or the begining of the end... idk which I like better. Here we go... its the end because its senior year.... oy vey! And at the same time its the begining because my life at school will be comming to a close and Ill get to go play like Im an adult or something queer like that. (haha... play... just not play because technicaly I will be an adult... ummm.. not sure how I feel about that.)
anyway... I can empathize with my buddy jar. I miss being abroad at Wroxton... even though it was probably the hardest thing I have ever done in my life... both scholasticly and socialy... I felt as though I had some purpose there. Summer alows lazyness... and I cant stand that. All Ive done this summer is be wedding planner for my friend and run old reliatives to the Dr. and such. (and yes, Im adding that to my resume as being a "personal care taker"... ha!) so anyway... its depressing. I like being at school... and learning and being with the most important people in my life... my fam.... the fam that put itself together and has in so many unknowable ways, touched my life beyond anything I could have ever dreamed of. I miss everyone... more than I care to acknowledge. Because if I dont think about it... if I keep busy then it doesnt hurt. The hurt comes late at night... when the world is asleep and we who are alone are left with our thoughts, memories, and hopes. But I am blessed... because in that time I know someone who is always there for me. And for him, I am soooo greatful. - I love him -
the end.