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so today was one of those annoying days where you do nothing and you feel like nothing and it's just a nothingness day. yeah, i stayed home today and all i did was sleep and eat and drink water and pee. i felt like a big nothing. nothing exciting happened, except for the drama found on Law and Order. and i hate the fact that the only people i got to see today were my family and my brothers friends yayyy fuuunnn. and now i dont' feel like doing anything because i just feel nothing except annoyed and i'm snapping at everyone again and i'm being mean for no reason and i just feel stupid. i want to be nicer but something is holding that back and i want to see someone but who can i see when it's 10 at night and no one wants to see me? i hate pointless days where i'm basically confined to my room because all i do is lie in bed and watch t.v. and now i'm finally fully awake and ready to go but its 10 at night and it's too late and no one wants to do anything anyway. i can't go to sleep because i'm not tired at all because i slept for a good five hours today but my muscles are feeling all wierd and tired but my mind is going a million miles a minute and it's not ready for sleep because thats all it did all day. i want some company right about now but i'm not going to get it because no one can drive or no one can hang out PERIOD because it's late and people are too busy doing something or my parents just won't let me which sucks because i'd really like some kind of companionship besides my two dogs.
rararhghgarhagahtghrhghg i'm not sick anymore and i want to see some other life forms besides my dogs and i want to talk to someone and i want someone to hold me and make this stupid feeling go away.