today
today was just another day for me, i went to school and now im home updating this thing. today wasnt so bad, school went by kinda fast and i had a good talk some good people at school. when i got on here to check my comments, i found myself a little less lost in the world. thats the biggest reason why i like trisha, she always knows how to say things and what to say to make a person feel better. she commented on my posts and made feel a litle better. at first i thought i had offended rob, so i called to explain myself to rob and trisha and found out that they werent upset with me at all, wich me made feel even better. im still very confused and lost about everything but now that ive gotten their input, im a little less lost and confused about things. dont get me wrong there are still many things that im confused about, but now that i got that subject cleared up i feel much better. i also found out that rob and trisha are car shopping today, wich is good because since rob totalled his car he hasnt had his own wheels, but soon he will again. joe is at my grandmas house taking care of her, she just had surgery, so ive been pretty bored latley without decent company to keep me busy and without joe to livin things up a bit. to sum up what im gboing through right now as best as i can, i feel that everyone in the world needs to figure out who they are at somepoint or another, and right now i have no fucking clue who i am, wich is a little depressive, but like i said earlier, at least i have good friends who can help me figure that out. rob said that him and trisha may come over today, wich i hope they do, cuz i havent seen them in a while and they are good to be around, they are very positive people with a good outlook on life, wich i feel im lacking at this point in time. i just hope trisha is feeling alright because she hasnt been at school lately, and when trisha misses school its usually for a good reason, i care about my friends a lot, probably more than i do myself, wich again i dont know why, buts thats that and i have to deal with it too. one question that keeps popping up in my mind though, is what in the fuck am i doing with my life right now, i dont wanna be a bum the rest of my life, but it seems like all i do is keep fucking up. i mean im doing better at school now that im in a smaller school, but school isnt everything. its like im looking in the mirror and all i see is a blur, i dont know who i am, and i dont know who i wanna be, wich i feel is the biggest problem for me right now. i guess that maybe my friends can help a little, but its just something i need to figure out for myself over time, oh well, im gonna stop rambling on about it.