i dunno, just some thoughts, and my day
well so far ive went to school, went to a funeral, ate some darvecets, and now im posting on here, not much fun, but it will be when these really start to hit me. now its time for another little section of joshes thoughts
there are some really fucked up people in the world that want nothing more than to see your agony, and thats fucked up. if i couyld i would go beat all their asses, i hate people like that. every day there is someone trying to make me feel bad, but it doesnt work, i ignore them, well not all the time, but i scared the shit out of a couple jocks that were fuckin with me, so they will leave me alone now. but still that only fixes part of the problem for me, it doesnt help the whole situation and it doesnt help my freinds who go through the same shit. im pretty sick and tired of those assholes out there, no one deserves to be fucked with to the point that they think they are a bad person or to the point where they just want to die, thats fucked up. i guess right now im feeling..........well i cant really describe how i feel, its kinda like a mix of anger and depression with a litle prescription pills thrown in. all these fucking people who have to make you feel bad to feel good about themselves are fucked up, i wish just for once that they could see what they do to other people. and by this post dont think im like seriousley getting picked on, cuz im not, a couple jocks fuck with me, but i scared them and if they do it again they will get their asses beat, i can stand up for myself, its my friends that this is happening to, and it really pisses me off to see this. like all the time i wanna just hit them, but everyone around me stops me from doing it. personally i feel that the only way they will learn is to get fucking beat, then they will understand. only problem is, 90% of the time i dont want to do anything cuz i dont wanna get into trouble, ive already been through the court system and dont really wanna be back in it, but then the 10% when im just ready to snap on them my friends stop me. anyone whos gonna read this, do you think there is something wrong with me for wanting to do something and not, or wanting to do something and letting people stop me? basically i feel like my world is just been fuckin put into the dryer, it just keeps spinning and i dont know when its gonna stop. i wanna do something for my friends but for some reason i cant. then again there is also the fact that most of my better freinds are all either in jail or moving out and graduating soon and im stuck in 10th grade. i use to think i knew how to solve everything and here lateley ive been not knowing how to solve anything or help much at all.
there are some really fucked up people in the world that want nothing more than to see your agony, and thats fucked up. if i couyld i would go beat all their asses, i hate people like that. every day there is someone trying to make me feel bad, but it doesnt work, i ignore them, well not all the time, but i scared the shit out of a couple jocks that were fuckin with me, so they will leave me alone now. but still that only fixes part of the problem for me, it doesnt help the whole situation and it doesnt help my freinds who go through the same shit. im pretty sick and tired of those assholes out there, no one deserves to be fucked with to the point that they think they are a bad person or to the point where they just want to die, thats fucked up. i guess right now im feeling..........well i cant really describe how i feel, its kinda like a mix of anger and depression with a litle prescription pills thrown in. all these fucking people who have to make you feel bad to feel good about themselves are fucked up, i wish just for once that they could see what they do to other people. and by this post dont think im like seriousley getting picked on, cuz im not, a couple jocks fuck with me, but i scared them and if they do it again they will get their asses beat, i can stand up for myself, its my friends that this is happening to, and it really pisses me off to see this. like all the time i wanna just hit them, but everyone around me stops me from doing it. personally i feel that the only way they will learn is to get fucking beat, then they will understand. only problem is, 90% of the time i dont want to do anything cuz i dont wanna get into trouble, ive already been through the court system and dont really wanna be back in it, but then the 10% when im just ready to snap on them my friends stop me. anyone whos gonna read this, do you think there is something wrong with me for wanting to do something and not, or wanting to do something and letting people stop me? basically i feel like my world is just been fuckin put into the dryer, it just keeps spinning and i dont know when its gonna stop. i wanna do something for my friends but for some reason i cant. then again there is also the fact that most of my better freinds are all either in jail or moving out and graduating soon and im stuck in 10th grade. i use to think i knew how to solve everything and here lateley ive been not knowing how to solve anything or help much at all.