Goodbye to you..Hello to The one held high as the mountains.

[xmoshxkidx]

28 school days left till graduation, 27 if i count my skip day. but man i am stressing a lot lately, i am grumpy a lot and i play it off after someone asks me why i am grumpy. i am going through a lot of changes in my life, and the things around me too. Graduation is opening up a new life for me, going out intot he real world, and i am scaried to be honest. i am currently in a fight with one of my best friends in the world, and he won't even return my calls, so i don't know if i am living there, so that puts more stress, my parents situation has me all upset and i just wish i had someone here with me to help me through. God is always there so thats good. Plus being away from kelly is so hard. i know i only have 41 days left but those 41 days r going to be tough, its hard not seeing the one u love for a long time. i hope my new band works out also, i planned my whole life around blessed endeavor, and now i am out of that and starting something better. i hope it works out. if you know me well, u know music is my life, my passion. and i can't bare to be gone without it for a long time. Alabama has been ups and down. these 9 months being here have sucked. people told me, God put me here for a reason and i know he did, but i just doesn't seem like anything came out of it that God would approve of. i have struggled even more with my walk cause i can't find anyone to be around down here who isn't a devoted strong christian. I just need to be back in Mass with everyone. I hate being depressed so much also. i miss so many things and am sick of being stepped on and losing friends and feeling like noone cares for me. all i want is things to be normal. i want these 41 days to go by so quick that i want to wake up tomorrow and have it be graduation and me not ask what had happened the last couple weeks. i want to feel completly happy again. i want to see my beautiful girlfriend who i love with every ounce of my heart again. i want to be in a band again that loves God and spreads his word. i can't wait to be a youth leader when i get back. their is so much waiting for me. i still need to send in my application to NECCO ( u guys should be happy, i am actually going to college unlike how i left saying i wasn't gonna go) that is also stressfull....AHHH LIFE SUCKS SOMETIMES!

i am done here with this long post of my boring depressing life, God help me be happy again, internally and externally.

God bless you guys and girls,
Josh-O