yeahh....
hey. im really bummin right now, so im jus gonna rant in here cause i dnt really wanna talk to anyone about it cause its lame.
well like, i've never felt as lonely as i have been feeling for the past few weeks or so. i mean i really dnt want to be in a relationship cause its just too much shit and i always end up getting hurt anyways, so im trying to aviod that junk for the time being. but like, i also miss having someone there and stuff. idk. im really retarded. i guess i do want someone, but not just anyone. i want to be with someone that will be with me for a while, cause i dnt see the point in going out with someone just for a week. and talking to some people about there problems and reasons why they dnt like relationships and stuff makes it seem retarded to be with someone, but everyone needs somebody. and i really hate being alone.. but id rather be alone then with someone i dnt really like or with someone i like more than they like me. so i guess i gotta jus accept things how they are and see what happens. cuz u kno "it always comes to you when u least exspect it"..so.. whatever.
what makes this shit even harder is that i still have feelings for..well... we all know who.. and it makes it hard cause it kinda hurts knowing that we used to be so close as friends and now we barely talk and whenever i see him in school its jus..idk. but whatever.
anyways. tomorrow im going over to billys with heather and meeting up miah there. either me and her are gonna get a ride from someone or we're walking there. *shrugs*
and then umm saturday im supposed to go to hooters with jack and some other peoples. *Shrugs* but saturday.. aruond like 11-4 or some shit.. the riverhouse is like giving free food awya or something. idk. it said something about it in the newspaper.. so im gonna go there hopefully and get me some stuffed shrimp with some hushpuppies cause its delicious.
oh yeah... happy birthday kristen!!
later
well like, i've never felt as lonely as i have been feeling for the past few weeks or so. i mean i really dnt want to be in a relationship cause its just too much shit and i always end up getting hurt anyways, so im trying to aviod that junk for the time being. but like, i also miss having someone there and stuff. idk. im really retarded. i guess i do want someone, but not just anyone. i want to be with someone that will be with me for a while, cause i dnt see the point in going out with someone just for a week. and talking to some people about there problems and reasons why they dnt like relationships and stuff makes it seem retarded to be with someone, but everyone needs somebody. and i really hate being alone.. but id rather be alone then with someone i dnt really like or with someone i like more than they like me. so i guess i gotta jus accept things how they are and see what happens. cuz u kno "it always comes to you when u least exspect it"..so.. whatever.
what makes this shit even harder is that i still have feelings for..well... we all know who.. and it makes it hard cause it kinda hurts knowing that we used to be so close as friends and now we barely talk and whenever i see him in school its jus..idk. but whatever.
anyways. tomorrow im going over to billys with heather and meeting up miah there. either me and her are gonna get a ride from someone or we're walking there. *shrugs*
and then umm saturday im supposed to go to hooters with jack and some other peoples. *Shrugs* but saturday.. aruond like 11-4 or some shit.. the riverhouse is like giving free food awya or something. idk. it said something about it in the newspaper.. so im gonna go there hopefully and get me some stuffed shrimp with some hushpuppies cause its delicious.
oh yeah... happy birthday kristen!!
later