Hello again
wow okay well good morning... good afternoon what ever you prefer to call noon
anywayz well I just got out of a bed a few minutes ago. I've been up for quite a while but I just decided to get out of bed.
I wanted to sleep in real late today.. but my body is used to getting up earlier now so I cant :(
Guess thats a good thing.
well hmm lets talk about dreams. I had some weird ones.
First one: well lets do a litle background info for this one. Last night when I was getting into my sisters car from the party I looked back and saw the moon. It looked extremely crazy. It was like a gold color and was really really low. ok so now the dream... I dont know where I was, I guess it was supposed to be like a classroom because there was some teacher in there. well he was talking about the moon. and if the moon looks like this, it means this. or if it looks like this it means this, etc...
thats crazy because first the moon (which I saw earlier) was intergrated into my dream, and then I was telling my sister when I saw the moon "Uh oh its going to be a bad night, when ever the moon looks crazy weird awful shit happens to me." hmm ok next one
Second one: well my ex of a year was in this one. and suddenly we were back together. He came over and me and my friends were outside. it was really late/early in the morning. he obviously wasnt supposed to be there, my mom would have flipped if she knew. so I was slitely scared that my mom would find us... blah anyway this is the uh.. hmm.. strange part. My ex came up on a bike.... dressed in a spiderman costumn. What the fuck is that supposed to mean?!?!? :-\ hmm well anyway, I guess It didnt faze me in the dream. well to make a long story short my mom found is, and was kinda mad I dont know. but hahah she found us because she came outside to ask us if we wanted some pizza because she was going to order some because she had a headache and needed to eat something. Okay well I have never once found a pizza place that delivers let alone is open at 4 in the morning. hah. I dont know.
well enough of my dreams.
ya I actually saw my ex for the first time in a long time. its weird, we've been broken up for almost a year, and I have never really talked to him face to face, and have only came really close to him like twice. once he walked by, and the other time was the time I started talking about. It was in McDonalds. me and my best friend were in there and he happend to come with his neices and Grandma, and ya. well we were by the bathrooms way in the back... and well what do you know he had to take a piss.. HMM... anyway, he just walked on by. I didnt even glance at him. My friend said he looked at me.. the just kinda looked away. wow.. I hate seeing him, it brings back so many memories, and then I wonder whats going through his head. I wonder if hes thinking "wow shes nasty now" or "wow I miss her" or well I dont know.. I've drawn a good enough picture. He's tried to get back with me, but I know I cant go through that again. Not matter how much I may miss the "GOOD" times... the bad is not worth it. I cant put myself through that ANY more. I dont know. I just really wish I could have known what he was thinking about me when he saw me.
I bet he was thinking "wow what an idiot" ... I was kinda buzzing so I was probably acting like a fool.
Oh well I guess...
I cant stand him just for the fact that he keeps me from being with who I really want to be with. well according to the guy I like.
they're best friends and the guy I like doesnt want to lose his best friend... because we both know my ex/his best friend would go crazy and act all stupid. but I dont know how much longer I COULD HAVE stood the whole secret thing anyway. Guess I dont have to worry about that anymore.. he'll probably never speak to me again, unless my horoscope was talking about him or what ever.. HAH.
well I dont know... I wish he would at least say something to give some closure if he is through with me.. but I guess I'll just always be here wondering.
whats new.
*..:..ME..:..*
anywayz well I just got out of a bed a few minutes ago. I've been up for quite a while but I just decided to get out of bed.
I wanted to sleep in real late today.. but my body is used to getting up earlier now so I cant :(
Guess thats a good thing.
well hmm lets talk about dreams. I had some weird ones.
First one: well lets do a litle background info for this one. Last night when I was getting into my sisters car from the party I looked back and saw the moon. It looked extremely crazy. It was like a gold color and was really really low. ok so now the dream... I dont know where I was, I guess it was supposed to be like a classroom because there was some teacher in there. well he was talking about the moon. and if the moon looks like this, it means this. or if it looks like this it means this, etc...
thats crazy because first the moon (which I saw earlier) was intergrated into my dream, and then I was telling my sister when I saw the moon "Uh oh its going to be a bad night, when ever the moon looks crazy weird awful shit happens to me." hmm ok next one
Second one: well my ex of a year was in this one. and suddenly we were back together. He came over and me and my friends were outside. it was really late/early in the morning. he obviously wasnt supposed to be there, my mom would have flipped if she knew. so I was slitely scared that my mom would find us... blah anyway this is the uh.. hmm.. strange part. My ex came up on a bike.... dressed in a spiderman costumn. What the fuck is that supposed to mean?!?!? :-\ hmm well anyway, I guess It didnt faze me in the dream. well to make a long story short my mom found is, and was kinda mad I dont know. but hahah she found us because she came outside to ask us if we wanted some pizza because she was going to order some because she had a headache and needed to eat something. Okay well I have never once found a pizza place that delivers let alone is open at 4 in the morning. hah. I dont know.
well enough of my dreams.
ya I actually saw my ex for the first time in a long time. its weird, we've been broken up for almost a year, and I have never really talked to him face to face, and have only came really close to him like twice. once he walked by, and the other time was the time I started talking about. It was in McDonalds. me and my best friend were in there and he happend to come with his neices and Grandma, and ya. well we were by the bathrooms way in the back... and well what do you know he had to take a piss.. HMM... anyway, he just walked on by. I didnt even glance at him. My friend said he looked at me.. the just kinda looked away. wow.. I hate seeing him, it brings back so many memories, and then I wonder whats going through his head. I wonder if hes thinking "wow shes nasty now" or "wow I miss her" or well I dont know.. I've drawn a good enough picture. He's tried to get back with me, but I know I cant go through that again. Not matter how much I may miss the "GOOD" times... the bad is not worth it. I cant put myself through that ANY more. I dont know. I just really wish I could have known what he was thinking about me when he saw me.
I bet he was thinking "wow what an idiot" ... I was kinda buzzing so I was probably acting like a fool.
Oh well I guess...
I cant stand him just for the fact that he keeps me from being with who I really want to be with. well according to the guy I like.
they're best friends and the guy I like doesnt want to lose his best friend... because we both know my ex/his best friend would go crazy and act all stupid. but I dont know how much longer I COULD HAVE stood the whole secret thing anyway. Guess I dont have to worry about that anymore.. he'll probably never speak to me again, unless my horoscope was talking about him or what ever.. HAH.
well I dont know... I wish he would at least say something to give some closure if he is through with me.. but I guess I'll just always be here wondering.
whats new.
*..:..ME..:..*