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Well I don’t know what to do anymore in my life. I wish I knew what I was alive for. People do not seem to understand me at all. I care about Tristan and still love him. Even though we are just friend at the moment, I wish I knew what his parents were doing to me.....to us.....I hope they are not trying to break us up for good. Together or not, I just have a strong feeling I am never going to get to see him again. I now its being silly, but I just have this wierd feeling. He told me today that his mom is cool with it, yet they are sending me my things. I dont think Tristan would jerk with me or play with my head or emotions, just his parents are making me upset and sad and all this shit. I dont think they want me around. They told Tristan hopefully he will meet some girl in Germany and want to stay there. That really hurt and upset me. I just feel like its happening again, just like everyone else and their fucking parents did. I feel so neglected, I dont know anymore. I wish this pain and feelings and emotions would just end. I still want to come back to LA, and I think I am going to. Just hope Tristan would/could be with me, well not like that but as a friend. I think his parents are trying to make that not happen. I dont know anymore. KILL MY PAIN!!!!!!