A jumble of emotions
Well, I think this speech recognition software is getting a little more accurate. Maybe it gets better with time, by adjusting to my voice or something. Hah.
I ran into some of the others over at a bookstore downtown. I guess they were looking for the new Harry Potter book. I already finished it, so I was trying to find something else to help me keep my mind off of things. Anyway, there was a new guy there, too--name's Gambit. He seemed...well, social enough, I can say. He was a bit too friendly for my tastes around the other girls, and I got the impression it wasn't just a one-time thing. But, I guess we all have our weaknesses, right?
This whole thing with Paige is starting to confuse me. I'm finally over the awkwardness we had when we meet, mostly due in part to my struggling relationship with Noren. But now that I'm finally comfortable around her, I'm starting to find myself flirting with her more. I promised myself I wouldn't involved with someone again until I had worked out some of the problems I had with myself regarding Noren, but now I'm not so sure. She's really nice, she's smart, and just as goofy as I am. She's only 3 years younger than me anyway.
The problem is that I'm not sure what ot do about it. If I went out with Paige right now, it would most likely be a 'rebound' relationship to help me cope with Noren leaving. But, at the same time, I might have feelings for Paige that have absolutely nothing to do with Noren. I felt it the other night when I went to talk to her like a normal human being--well, as normal as a mutant can get, I suppose--and I felt it again in the form of mild jealousy when Gambit was flirting with her last night. Why should I let myself get upset if someone else seems to like her, if I don't want to get involved? I chose not to act the other night, and I didn't say anything last night, either. Yet why do I still have these feelings? Bah. Girls are just so frustrating sometimes. I don't want to get involved. It wouldn't be right, not right now. It would just be unfair to her.
Wouldn't it?
Well I wrote you a letter but I tore it up
Then I wrote another letter and I tore it up
Stare up at the ball game
On the TV screen
If you care to find me
You'll know where I'll be
And then they play that song I love
And I feel like I just can't lose
I feel like I should call you up
But I'll stay here all night
'Till I get it right
And then they play that song I hate
And I feel like I just can't win
I'm breakin' down
The room begins to spin
I'll stay here all night
'Till I get it right
OOC: Thanks to everyone for the log! The full version can be found over at xmm_livia's LJ, or you can just check out this link. Thanks to Livia for posting it. ^_^
I ran into some of the others over at a bookstore downtown. I guess they were looking for the new Harry Potter book. I already finished it, so I was trying to find something else to help me keep my mind off of things. Anyway, there was a new guy there, too--name's Gambit. He seemed...well, social enough, I can say. He was a bit too friendly for my tastes around the other girls, and I got the impression it wasn't just a one-time thing. But, I guess we all have our weaknesses, right?
This whole thing with Paige is starting to confuse me. I'm finally over the awkwardness we had when we meet, mostly due in part to my struggling relationship with Noren. But now that I'm finally comfortable around her, I'm starting to find myself flirting with her more. I promised myself I wouldn't involved with someone again until I had worked out some of the problems I had with myself regarding Noren, but now I'm not so sure. She's really nice, she's smart, and just as goofy as I am. She's only 3 years younger than me anyway.
The problem is that I'm not sure what ot do about it. If I went out with Paige right now, it would most likely be a 'rebound' relationship to help me cope with Noren leaving. But, at the same time, I might have feelings for Paige that have absolutely nothing to do with Noren. I felt it the other night when I went to talk to her like a normal human being--well, as normal as a mutant can get, I suppose--and I felt it again in the form of mild jealousy when Gambit was flirting with her last night. Why should I let myself get upset if someone else seems to like her, if I don't want to get involved? I chose not to act the other night, and I didn't say anything last night, either. Yet why do I still have these feelings? Bah. Girls are just so frustrating sometimes. I don't want to get involved. It wouldn't be right, not right now. It would just be unfair to her.
Wouldn't it?
Well I wrote you a letter but I tore it up
Then I wrote another letter and I tore it up
Stare up at the ball game
On the TV screen
If you care to find me
You'll know where I'll be
And then they play that song I love
And I feel like I just can't lose
I feel like I should call you up
But I'll stay here all night
'Till I get it right
And then they play that song I hate
And I feel like I just can't win
I'm breakin' down
The room begins to spin
I'll stay here all night
'Till I get it right
OOC: Thanks to everyone for the log! The full version can be found over at xmm_livia's LJ, or you can just check out this link. Thanks to Livia for posting it. ^_^