riiight
Okay so...I think my life has taken a big dive off the dyfunctional diving board right into the deep end. There's so much crazy shit going on that...it's just nuts...it really is...So...first...I get the good advice that I should just leave Sabella...and...I think to myself that it's a good idea...besides I had Nikita working her way into my heart...so I go see Sabella...and...well...it was Sabella and we sort of fell into each other...and...fell in love all over again...then...Nikita leaves me...okay well I've got sabella still right?...except I want the real Bella...not the succubus or the bleeding heart...I want my real Bella...and I think they're trying to take her away from me forever...everyone wants one side of her or another...so few of us want both...want her back together...even Jean is working to lock Bella on the top (the bleeding hert bella) and I guess it makes sense...since that bella is thoroughly not evil...I should want her on top too...but my heart doesn't...god...Sabella said she loves me...you have no idea how that feels...anyway hings get weirder...so I'm dreaming about sabella...and another Sabela shows up and join in (do I have to say what kind of dream it was?) anyway after a while I catch on to it not being sabella in my dream it's this girl...who proceeds to make me a bella of my own...a clone of bella made based on my vison of her except she loves only me...and it's greta but..I want the real thing...but now I have naother living breathing feeling sabella that I'm responsible for as well...I ~did~ warn you...really messed up....I think I need Jean's advice