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things are wonderful lately, and i couldn't be much happier.
i've actually been getting out, and doing more than just laying in my room listening to music (that was an exciting day). i've become more of a slacker though. i have gotten really lazy with my homework assignments, and they've been going uncompleted. well, mostly math and i haven't read the last two books for book club. i really can't wait until school is over. this is the time of year that just drags. it's so hard to pay attention in class, and i find myself just doodling the whole time when i really should be listening. i have a feeling that my report card isn't going to turn out too well this quarter. i might get atleast honors, but not my usual high honors. i really hate to settle for average, but it seems i've been doing that alot lately. i've also found out that i missed national honor society but .4 points... just floating by seems to be my new routine. i guess you can't have a social life and a successful academic life, and my education got the short end of the bargain.
i'm sure i sound really dorky for caring so much. it just blows my mind that i'm going to be a senior next year. i'm really scared about it. my whole life i've went to school not worrying about the future. this year i've truely realized how worried i should be. i just can't motivate myself to do something about it. i've been getting all of this college mail, and i have no idea where i want to go. i thought i had my mind made up but i was wrong. there's so much work i have to do yet with research and campus visiting. i still have parts of my graduation project to do that i should have done last year such as my job shadowing. i'm sure my mind gets the best of me sometimes, and gives me a lot of unnecessary stress.
i know i started this whole entry saying how happy i was and then continued to complain, but i really am very happy. i have great friends and i couldn't ask for a more wonderful boyfriend. i've gained a few new enemies too, but i'm ok with it. i'd rather have someone hate me for who i am than like me for who i'm not. so, with that all said and done here is a painting by me and hannah to top off this awesomely pointless early dismissal tuesday.
