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i remember growing up two different worlds. the first was that my emotions were very important, but i had to keep them from those i loved, because emotions can bring out the worst in us. the second was that my emotions were real, but they didn't matter in the real world, because the world is meant to be dysfunctional. And dysfunction is not allowed and we have to hide it, because if people find out what we really think, they would hurt us.