If I haven't got you....
Well well well, what a weird week this one has been.
My fucked up head has been playing games with me again, As Justin kept asking me "wats wrong, theres something up" but yes, there obviously was but i don't know why i've been so fucking depressed, hardly anyone could cheer me up and when justin did, something always brought me back down again. Im over that now. Hyper rachel is back in the game.
Me&Justin are going really awesome and he's staying over on friday =) i cant wait for that, its going to be awesome ...yay finally get to fall asleep next to him again =) ♥
I'm going to see so many bands this year and next =0 Motorhead next wednesday, Cradle of filth in december, all american rejects and soulfly. And (Hawthorne Heights/Bullet For My Valentine/aiden/still remains) =D hehe yay!!
I feel so drained =( i realy wanted justin to come over this weekend seeing as he didnt come over last weekend, But i know he always needs to choose his mates over me, and i know that. Plus he hasnt seen matt in ages and again i respect that. Just got to go another week to actually get his full attention =( oh well, done it before.
Im listening to areosmith at the moment, i love this song and actually it really makes me cry. The memories and thoughts that linger with this song make me cry everytime. But less on that...
I might have an early night tonight, try and rid myself of all my fucked up-ness. Because it's not good for me, i've been hiding all my feelings and everything from everybody >_< it's not good. (except justin, he knows everything to me...i actually this he's the only one who deserves to see it.)
xoxoxoxox
My fucked up head has been playing games with me again, As Justin kept asking me "wats wrong, theres something up" but yes, there obviously was but i don't know why i've been so fucking depressed, hardly anyone could cheer me up and when justin did, something always brought me back down again. Im over that now. Hyper rachel is back in the game.
Me&Justin are going really awesome and he's staying over on friday =) i cant wait for that, its going to be awesome ...yay finally get to fall asleep next to him again =) ♥
I'm going to see so many bands this year and next =0 Motorhead next wednesday, Cradle of filth in december, all american rejects and soulfly. And (Hawthorne Heights/Bullet For My Valentine/aiden/still remains) =D hehe yay!!
I feel so drained =( i realy wanted justin to come over this weekend seeing as he didnt come over last weekend, But i know he always needs to choose his mates over me, and i know that. Plus he hasnt seen matt in ages and again i respect that. Just got to go another week to actually get his full attention =( oh well, done it before.
Im listening to areosmith at the moment, i love this song and actually it really makes me cry. The memories and thoughts that linger with this song make me cry everytime. But less on that...
I might have an early night tonight, try and rid myself of all my fucked up-ness. Because it's not good for me, i've been hiding all my feelings and everything from everybody >_< it's not good. (except justin, he knows everything to me...i actually this he's the only one who deserves to see it.)
xoxoxoxox