i smoke the brands with the cancer guaranteed
tuesday and wednesday and thursday of last week were three days in my life. im sure that nothing important happened. because nothing important ever does. we had school and rehearsal.
and on wednesday i was forced by my parents to go to the high school gym and sit and listen to endless names being called until they got to mine and i walked up, shook the hands of the adminstration as i pretended to be excited about a third year honors award. then stood there completely blank as my parents spouted obligatory remarks of pride. yay for pointlessness and unimportance. and secret unfounded resentment.
and on thursday me and caitlin and christian went to chili's for dinner. then newbury comics. as i pretend to sorta kinda have a life. even though when i try to have friends some how it ends up hurting me anyways.
oh yeah, and alex liz and i got pizza for last block acting. and alex and i got in third place in the barbie prom game. with poindexter.
friday after rehearsal i had a near breakdown. trying to make everyone else happy. so after almost crying, we stuffed everyone into my poor ernest, dropped off alex bett and christian and picked up bri. and headed to the mall with the girls [bri elise emily caitlin]. and it was really fun. in a nondescript general fun way. cold, though. oh yeah, and elise got some cute kids number.
saturday - work. home to mindlessly set myself to cleaning and rearranging my room just to get my head on straight. alex called in a frenzy, showed up a couple minutes later. with a cloud of lies behind us, we jumped in stephanie and sped to alex bett's in the snow. and after a couple hours, everything else was a little blurry and a lot better. thank you.
woke up in a daze. after struggling finn's car out of the snow filled driveway, we went on a $20 food run to mcdonalds. in a fucking blizzard. but somehow [i dont really know how] we made it back. because finn is an amazing driver. and all the guys in their plows were like "why are there two teenagers driving in their saturn down 495"... cause we were fucking hungry, thats why. got back to bett's. made bacon. filled his kitchen with smoke and laughter. dropped bacon grease in the snow. said goodbye. went home. more mindless room work. restless sleep.
monday - went to the newbury comics and the movies with elise. i lovelise. listened to a lot of simple kid and mellowed out. called up finn. met him and burke at mcdonalds. ate. dropped off elise. went home.
TODAY - my neck hurts. lots and lots of pain. and its almost 6:00 and none of my family is here. i dont know why. but its the story of my life.
its bad that the most exciting thing to happen this week could turn out to be the worst idea.
but still. hm.
.. in general, things just dont seem to be getting any better ..
~~
ps. sorry.
and on wednesday i was forced by my parents to go to the high school gym and sit and listen to endless names being called until they got to mine and i walked up, shook the hands of the adminstration as i pretended to be excited about a third year honors award. then stood there completely blank as my parents spouted obligatory remarks of pride. yay for pointlessness and unimportance. and secret unfounded resentment.
and on thursday me and caitlin and christian went to chili's for dinner. then newbury comics. as i pretend to sorta kinda have a life. even though when i try to have friends some how it ends up hurting me anyways.
oh yeah, and alex liz and i got pizza for last block acting. and alex and i got in third place in the barbie prom game. with poindexter.
friday after rehearsal i had a near breakdown. trying to make everyone else happy. so after almost crying, we stuffed everyone into my poor ernest, dropped off alex bett and christian and picked up bri. and headed to the mall with the girls [bri elise emily caitlin]. and it was really fun. in a nondescript general fun way. cold, though. oh yeah, and elise got some cute kids number.
saturday - work. home to mindlessly set myself to cleaning and rearranging my room just to get my head on straight. alex called in a frenzy, showed up a couple minutes later. with a cloud of lies behind us, we jumped in stephanie and sped to alex bett's in the snow. and after a couple hours, everything else was a little blurry and a lot better. thank you.
woke up in a daze. after struggling finn's car out of the snow filled driveway, we went on a $20 food run to mcdonalds. in a fucking blizzard. but somehow [i dont really know how] we made it back. because finn is an amazing driver. and all the guys in their plows were like "why are there two teenagers driving in their saturn down 495"... cause we were fucking hungry, thats why. got back to bett's. made bacon. filled his kitchen with smoke and laughter. dropped bacon grease in the snow. said goodbye. went home. more mindless room work. restless sleep.
monday - went to the newbury comics and the movies with elise. i lovelise. listened to a lot of simple kid and mellowed out. called up finn. met him and burke at mcdonalds. ate. dropped off elise. went home.
TODAY - my neck hurts. lots and lots of pain. and its almost 6:00 and none of my family is here. i dont know why. but its the story of my life.
its bad that the most exciting thing to happen this week could turn out to be the worst idea.
but still. hm.
.. in general, things just dont seem to be getting any better ..
~~
ps. sorry.