time after time after time
this stupid snow is driving me nuts and i totally can't deal with it. it's making me think of all these really good times in the summer when we walked around aimlessly and went to new hyde park all the time. and i had all these friends that i could depend on all the time, and sleepovers and parties, and getting high, and too drunk to stand, and listening to hardcore and making fun of the boys and running around kristin syossets house when she had her get togethers and swimming in the pool and laughing so hard we couldnt breathe and the mae show when me leeat and julie met james, and i met julie and me and leeat were the best of friends and were basically inseperable.
sometimes i really am so confused about who my real friends are. i miss some of you guys like alot. possibly more than you know. kristin, kristin, leeat, allison, and christina. i havent really been the best friend in the world lately, but i want you guys to know that somewhere in my heart i care about you guys more than anything. you guys made my summer so unforgettable, and allison + christina, when you guys leave, i know i'll cry, because you wont always be around to have random talks to and to laugh about stupid things or watch say anything or go to the sushi place in flushing and drink bubble tea or straighten noahs hair or go to the carnival and look at christinas pictures. it's like the winter brings this chill and it completely ruined our friendships.
and kristin and kristin2, i love you guys so so much, and i'm sorry that i havent hung out with you. i miss kristins basement, and syossets cute laugh and when she get paranoid when she gets high. i don't know. all of you guys are just like, my absolute best friends, or were (?) i'm not even sure anymore. and leeat, remember that time we got so drunk and you were outside screaming to sausto and when we went to fire island and when we went to the beach with your parents, and long beach for shabbot. i dont know why i'm rambling, but i miss you guys, and this is like the only place i can really express it.