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i dont know what's been goin on w/me lately. i just havent felt good.
something in me just really doesn't feel right, and i really have no fucking idea what it is. the weather this week has cheered me up..but its still all sorts of fucked up.
and i really need to get into the doctor and see why the fuck i cant sleep at night.
when i finally did fall asleep last night..i had a dream..and it was almost like 4 other dreams that i had.
i've had dreams like this before. its like a little mini-series in my dreams. i'm trying to find this one ghost. her name is amehlia.(ah-mel-ia). i know that is her name because she carves it into the floor everytime i have the dream. the first dream i had having to do w/her, she possessed me..and took me to a dark and deserted room. i just kind of sat there, swearing that i'd find her for the rest of the dream. in the other dreams, i've been searching for her in places that i think i've seen before, but i can't pinpoint exactly where they are. but this ghost, amehlia, is either trying to tell me something really important, or shes trying to fucking kill me. last night i got possessed, and took a giant steel rode and stabbed myself in the heart with it. (while i was possessed). i didnt die. i just kinda fell to the ground, she left my body, and i pulled the thing out, and then ran after her. i just kept running into a big deep black tunnel, not being able to see anything, and hearing the creepy laughs of a little girl.
i don't know what the fuck it is all about. there is a lot more to the dreams, but i dont feel like typing it all out. its really messed up though.
they say dreams have some significance in your life...but i would really like to know what fucking significance that has in my life. some ghost bitch stabbing me in the heart with my own body..and then i get up and run after the bitch. im all like what the fuck is going on.
i really don't know.
thats my rant for now.
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titties.
something in me just really doesn't feel right, and i really have no fucking idea what it is. the weather this week has cheered me up..but its still all sorts of fucked up.
and i really need to get into the doctor and see why the fuck i cant sleep at night.
when i finally did fall asleep last night..i had a dream..and it was almost like 4 other dreams that i had.
i've had dreams like this before. its like a little mini-series in my dreams. i'm trying to find this one ghost. her name is amehlia.(ah-mel-ia). i know that is her name because she carves it into the floor everytime i have the dream. the first dream i had having to do w/her, she possessed me..and took me to a dark and deserted room. i just kind of sat there, swearing that i'd find her for the rest of the dream. in the other dreams, i've been searching for her in places that i think i've seen before, but i can't pinpoint exactly where they are. but this ghost, amehlia, is either trying to tell me something really important, or shes trying to fucking kill me. last night i got possessed, and took a giant steel rode and stabbed myself in the heart with it. (while i was possessed). i didnt die. i just kinda fell to the ground, she left my body, and i pulled the thing out, and then ran after her. i just kept running into a big deep black tunnel, not being able to see anything, and hearing the creepy laughs of a little girl.
i don't know what the fuck it is all about. there is a lot more to the dreams, but i dont feel like typing it all out. its really messed up though.
they say dreams have some significance in your life...but i would really like to know what fucking significance that has in my life. some ghost bitch stabbing me in the heart with my own body..and then i get up and run after the bitch. im all like what the fuck is going on.
i really don't know.
thats my rant for now.
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titties.