Free Mielke
Dear Anyone That Wants to Listen,
So, since the week before Spring Break it has been horrible. I was in the ER on Monday night. I had a heart monitor on me that following Thursday. I basically missed a week of school. Then I had Spring Break but worked during the weekends. My boo got locked 2 weeks ago for shop lifting alcohol. So now he goes back to prison after summer to serve the rest of his probabtion. Im so mad at him for that. Any ways, I need to get on top of doing all of my homework. I am supposed to be half way done with a book but only on page 23.
Call me wierd, but lately I have been chilling with Cody, Jordan, and Alex. Mostly Alex though. I yelled at him so bad the day he got out. I chased his ass down and started fighting with him. I was ready to beat his ass. This is what my cousin said to me though.
skptomylu08 (11:32:11 AM): you like alex a lot dont you
urontherhtck987 (11:32:46 AM): lol yeah.
skptomylu08 (11:32:52 AM): i can tell.
skptomylu08 (11:35:38 AM): being alex does seem like a little player, but if he really <3 you the way i think he does then he would be able to be faithful to you not matter how many hoes there are.
skptomylu08 (11:35:48 AM): b/c i saw the way he would look at you and smile.
skptomylu08 (11:36:21 AM): it was so cute, you can tell he does have some deeper feelings for you then just sex.
skptomylu08 (11:39:39 AM): yea i mean you have been
skptomylu08 (11:40:02 AM): and i know you dont want to think about this, but support him while his is in jail.
skptomylu08 (11:40:33 AM): like write him letters or what not, and im sure that will mean so much to him. b/c if you stick with him even while he is in jail when he gets out he is gonna wanna see you and talk to you in person.
urontherhtck987 (11:41:10 AM): yeah i know that he gave me some stamps when he was moving and told me to hold on to him so i can write to him
skptomylu08 (11:41:24 AM): see, he wants you in his life
urontherhtck987 (11:41:28 AM): and i said i would and they are in my wallet still and i told him if he doesnt put me on his visiting list im gunna kill him
skptomylu08 (11:41:35 AM): lol.
urontherhtck987 (11:41:36 AM): he said i was already on it
urontherhtck987 (11:41:38 AM): lol
skptomylu08 (11:41:42 AM): aw
skptomylu08 (11:42:04 AM): ker he cares about you, just give him time to realize that you are what he wants and doesnt need all of those other ladies.
urontherhtck987 (11:42:07 AM): but when he was moving out of stephs house i broke down and cried and he looked at me and was like naw baby dont cry and hugged me i was like damn it
urontherhtck987 (11:42:14 AM): yeah
skptomylu08 (11:42:15 AM): aww.
skptomylu08 (11:42:25 AM): he is a sweet guy ker. and he means well.
skptomylu08 (11:42:31 AM): its just right now you know how guys are
urontherhtck987 (11:42:40 AM): hell yeah
skptomylu08 (11:42:41 AM): those damn hoes, got to ruien it all for the rest of us.
skptomylu08 (11:43:35 AM): but seriously think about it, if he was to find out that you hooked up with some other guy or was dating someone else im sure he would be a little hurt. and he would probably make fun of the guy and make him sound like he is not worth your time.
skptomylu08 (11:44:00 AM): its what guys do. he does like you, just being with you guys for 20 minutes i could tell that.
I love having my heart to heart conversations with my big cousin. Even though she made me cry because I was actually thinking about it. It's so wierd though. Alex and I had this conversation before but he's afraid of hurting me because "he knows how he is in relationships." I wrote him a long ass letter like a week after he got out and he read it and was like babe fo real I love you too all of this stuff. He told me if there is a girl that I think he shouldn't be messing with that I should let him know. I only have 3 girls on that list and I am sure that he's messed with em too. Especially Lissa. It's all a fucked up situation. God knows if I messed with someone they would have to be regulated by Alex first because he tells me before he is about to go mess around with someone. It's fucked up, because I know that both of us care about each other but it's kind of we are just really good friends and we are more of friends with benefits ya know. I do love him though and everytime I see him he tells me he loves me and stuff and he will hug me give me a kiss. Shit what am I doing to myself. I do remember just that morning before he got locked up I was sleeping with him in bed because Steph had gone to work and he just got home at 9 and I was heading back to sleep before I had to go to work. I had the worst dream ever and I woke his ass up and he wrapped his arms around me and was like "baby no, you are fine. Nothing is going to happen to you." And I feel back asleep. Then when he got out of jail, I was helping him move out of the house into my cousins apartment with Jordan and I started to cry because I really don't want him to go back to jail and I seriously just broke down. I don't cry in front of people. Like wtf. He looked at me and was like "Boo, are you crying. Awe naw please don't cry." And he hugged me and I was like "baby dont cry please dont." I told him it was just too late.
His ass. I swear. I love him to death though. I'd always be there for him. Even when Lissa killed his baby. Awe im gunna fuck her shit up. Fuck that shit. Not only that this bitch was trying to get me in trouble at work. Well I did get trouble at work. And she tried starting shit and I almost got fired because of her. So now her ass is hit. God damn I just got a list working. Wooo
I need to get ready for the day. I havent done shit yet. Grr. Adios
<333 Ker
So, since the week before Spring Break it has been horrible. I was in the ER on Monday night. I had a heart monitor on me that following Thursday. I basically missed a week of school. Then I had Spring Break but worked during the weekends. My boo got locked 2 weeks ago for shop lifting alcohol. So now he goes back to prison after summer to serve the rest of his probabtion. Im so mad at him for that. Any ways, I need to get on top of doing all of my homework. I am supposed to be half way done with a book but only on page 23.
Call me wierd, but lately I have been chilling with Cody, Jordan, and Alex. Mostly Alex though. I yelled at him so bad the day he got out. I chased his ass down and started fighting with him. I was ready to beat his ass. This is what my cousin said to me though.
skptomylu08 (11:32:11 AM): you like alex a lot dont you
urontherhtck987 (11:32:46 AM): lol yeah.
skptomylu08 (11:32:52 AM): i can tell.
skptomylu08 (11:35:38 AM): being alex does seem like a little player, but if he really <3 you the way i think he does then he would be able to be faithful to you not matter how many hoes there are.
skptomylu08 (11:35:48 AM): b/c i saw the way he would look at you and smile.
skptomylu08 (11:36:21 AM): it was so cute, you can tell he does have some deeper feelings for you then just sex.
skptomylu08 (11:39:39 AM): yea i mean you have been
skptomylu08 (11:40:02 AM): and i know you dont want to think about this, but support him while his is in jail.
skptomylu08 (11:40:33 AM): like write him letters or what not, and im sure that will mean so much to him. b/c if you stick with him even while he is in jail when he gets out he is gonna wanna see you and talk to you in person.
urontherhtck987 (11:41:10 AM): yeah i know that he gave me some stamps when he was moving and told me to hold on to him so i can write to him
skptomylu08 (11:41:24 AM): see, he wants you in his life
urontherhtck987 (11:41:28 AM): and i said i would and they are in my wallet still and i told him if he doesnt put me on his visiting list im gunna kill him
skptomylu08 (11:41:35 AM): lol.
urontherhtck987 (11:41:36 AM): he said i was already on it
urontherhtck987 (11:41:38 AM): lol
skptomylu08 (11:41:42 AM): aw
skptomylu08 (11:42:04 AM): ker he cares about you, just give him time to realize that you are what he wants and doesnt need all of those other ladies.
urontherhtck987 (11:42:07 AM): but when he was moving out of stephs house i broke down and cried and he looked at me and was like naw baby dont cry and hugged me i was like damn it
urontherhtck987 (11:42:14 AM): yeah
skptomylu08 (11:42:15 AM): aww.
skptomylu08 (11:42:25 AM): he is a sweet guy ker. and he means well.
skptomylu08 (11:42:31 AM): its just right now you know how guys are
urontherhtck987 (11:42:40 AM): hell yeah
skptomylu08 (11:42:41 AM): those damn hoes, got to ruien it all for the rest of us.
skptomylu08 (11:43:35 AM): but seriously think about it, if he was to find out that you hooked up with some other guy or was dating someone else im sure he would be a little hurt. and he would probably make fun of the guy and make him sound like he is not worth your time.
skptomylu08 (11:44:00 AM): its what guys do. he does like you, just being with you guys for 20 minutes i could tell that.
I love having my heart to heart conversations with my big cousin. Even though she made me cry because I was actually thinking about it. It's so wierd though. Alex and I had this conversation before but he's afraid of hurting me because "he knows how he is in relationships." I wrote him a long ass letter like a week after he got out and he read it and was like babe fo real I love you too all of this stuff. He told me if there is a girl that I think he shouldn't be messing with that I should let him know. I only have 3 girls on that list and I am sure that he's messed with em too. Especially Lissa. It's all a fucked up situation. God knows if I messed with someone they would have to be regulated by Alex first because he tells me before he is about to go mess around with someone. It's fucked up, because I know that both of us care about each other but it's kind of we are just really good friends and we are more of friends with benefits ya know. I do love him though and everytime I see him he tells me he loves me and stuff and he will hug me give me a kiss. Shit what am I doing to myself. I do remember just that morning before he got locked up I was sleeping with him in bed because Steph had gone to work and he just got home at 9 and I was heading back to sleep before I had to go to work. I had the worst dream ever and I woke his ass up and he wrapped his arms around me and was like "baby no, you are fine. Nothing is going to happen to you." And I feel back asleep. Then when he got out of jail, I was helping him move out of the house into my cousins apartment with Jordan and I started to cry because I really don't want him to go back to jail and I seriously just broke down. I don't cry in front of people. Like wtf. He looked at me and was like "Boo, are you crying. Awe naw please don't cry." And he hugged me and I was like "baby dont cry please dont." I told him it was just too late.
His ass. I swear. I love him to death though. I'd always be there for him. Even when Lissa killed his baby. Awe im gunna fuck her shit up. Fuck that shit. Not only that this bitch was trying to get me in trouble at work. Well I did get trouble at work. And she tried starting shit and I almost got fired because of her. So now her ass is hit. God damn I just got a list working. Wooo
I need to get ready for the day. I havent done shit yet. Grr. Adios
<333 Ker