Same Girlll
I don't know what to do any more.
I've lost too many friends over stupid shit.
Things said that people don't mean, asking for apologies.
Acting like everything is okay is bull shit.
Now I'm stuck in a jumble. My ex likes my best friend.
She said she wasn't going to do anything to me like that.
I said its her choice and thats all I said but what else am I supposed to say.
The worst part, I still like him for some reason.
I know I shouldn't but I do. She used to like him but idk.
She is just like me though. I think I know what shes thinking.
Whats even worse is what she told me last night.
I was so fucken bummed about him breaking up with me and then she said this to me.
"I wasn't supposed to tell you this because he asked me not to. I'm gunna tell you any ways. For about a week straight, he was calling me saying that he shouldn't have broken up with you."
I was like "damn." That's all I said too. I didn't know what to say.
Now even my ex-boyfriends friend likes me. He thinks that I like him but I don't.
At all. Now today I have to break it to him that I don't.
I'm going to feel like such an asshole.
I have to do it though to clear everything up. Bullshit I tell you.
My mom went to the hospital last Friday.
Rushed by ambulence. My dad tried pulling his sappy little I love her so much yada yada yada.
I could really care or less. He means nothing to me.
I still haven't got a job. I had 2 interviews and never a call back.
I guess it looks like i'm out looking again.
My mom was so embarassed. She came in my room at 7:30 in the morning while I was passed out.
She's balling her eyes out. I woke up as soon as she said my name standing at my door. She looked at me and I thought she was going to fucken die. She couldn't get dressed. I had to help her. I serisouly dressed my mom for the day. She couldn't bend over or anything. I called the ambulence and said that I would drive her to the ER but I dont think she could sit in there.
Her back spasms were so bad. They had to come and get her. Before she could sit down or move, they had to give her morphine. My step-dad was snapping on me the whole time. I was on the phone with 911 and they said that they were sending an ambulence and they started asking some questions. He was tripping.
"Tell them to stop asking so many fucken questions and just get over here."
Finally I just told him to shut the fuck up. That I have it under control.
My mom was there by 8 that morning. I stayed with her the whole time, until I went to go and get my brothers.
They were there with me too. Kaleys mom and Kaley were like on call. They didn't want me to be alone up there if my brothers left.
They said that if she needed any thing to call them and that they would be there in a heart beat.
Her mom took the day off to help out with that and because of some family issues.
My mom was there all day. She didn't get a room til about 5 o'clock at night. That was when my dad finally showed up.
I stayed with Kaley for 2 days. Finally by day 2, my dad finally picked a fucken fight with her.
They got into a big ass argument because of me going picture day shopping.
So I could have a damn outfit for pictures.
It was bullshit.
My mom told him not to come back so he said that he wasn't going to. Then he finally did.
He pulled his little "I'm depressed go and do whatever you fucken want."
I wasn't going to handle his shit. I left.
I could care two shits less about him too.
My mom was there for 3 days and no one did more for her than me.
Just to think, that weekend I was supposed to get kicked out.
Now, my mom wants to move.
Chatanugga, Tennessee.
I think thats how you spell it. She's trying to talk me into it.
I'm not going though.
Im moving in with Kaley or my grandma.
Both of them already said that I could.
Thank god.
I don't know what to do any more.
I've lost too many friends over stupid shit.
Things said that people don't mean, asking for apologies.
Acting like everything is okay is bull shit.
Now I'm stuck in a jumble. My ex likes my best friend.
She said she wasn't going to do anything to me like that.
I said its her choice and thats all I said but what else am I supposed to say.
The worst part, I still like him for some reason.
I know I shouldn't but I do. She used to like him but idk.
She is just like me though. I think I know what shes thinking.
Whats even worse is what she told me last night.
I was so fucken bummed about him breaking up with me and then she said this to me.
"I wasn't supposed to tell you this because he asked me not to. I'm gunna tell you any ways. For about a week straight, he was calling me saying that he shouldn't have broken up with you."
I was like "damn." That's all I said too. I didn't know what to say.
Now even my ex-boyfriends friend likes me. He thinks that I like him but I don't.
At all. Now today I have to break it to him that I don't.
I'm going to feel like such an asshole.
I have to do it though to clear everything up. Bullshit I tell you.
My mom went to the hospital last Friday.
Rushed by ambulence. My dad tried pulling his sappy little I love her so much yada yada yada.
I could really care or less. He means nothing to me.
I still haven't got a job. I had 2 interviews and never a call back.
I guess it looks like i'm out looking again.
My mom was so embarassed. She came in my room at 7:30 in the morning while I was passed out.
She's balling her eyes out. I woke up as soon as she said my name standing at my door. She looked at me and I thought she was going to fucken die. She couldn't get dressed. I had to help her. I serisouly dressed my mom for the day. She couldn't bend over or anything. I called the ambulence and said that I would drive her to the ER but I dont think she could sit in there.
Her back spasms were so bad. They had to come and get her. Before she could sit down or move, they had to give her morphine. My step-dad was snapping on me the whole time. I was on the phone with 911 and they said that they were sending an ambulence and they started asking some questions. He was tripping.
"Tell them to stop asking so many fucken questions and just get over here."
Finally I just told him to shut the fuck up. That I have it under control.
My mom was there by 8 that morning. I stayed with her the whole time, until I went to go and get my brothers.
They were there with me too. Kaleys mom and Kaley were like on call. They didn't want me to be alone up there if my brothers left.
They said that if she needed any thing to call them and that they would be there in a heart beat.
Her mom took the day off to help out with that and because of some family issues.
My mom was there all day. She didn't get a room til about 5 o'clock at night. That was when my dad finally showed up.
I stayed with Kaley for 2 days. Finally by day 2, my dad finally picked a fucken fight with her.
They got into a big ass argument because of me going picture day shopping.
So I could have a damn outfit for pictures.
It was bullshit.
My mom told him not to come back so he said that he wasn't going to. Then he finally did.
He pulled his little "I'm depressed go and do whatever you fucken want."
I wasn't going to handle his shit. I left.
I could care two shits less about him too.
My mom was there for 3 days and no one did more for her than me.
Just to think, that weekend I was supposed to get kicked out.
Now, my mom wants to move.
Chatanugga, Tennessee.
I think thats how you spell it. She's trying to talk me into it.
I'm not going though.
Im moving in with Kaley or my grandma.
Both of them already said that I could.
Thank god.
I don't know what to do any more.