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i wish i knew what happened. i wish i didnt have to do this. i wish i didnt break your heart. twice. i wish i was better with my words. i wish you were still happy. i wish you were angry at me. it would be alot easiar on me. i dont know how to deal with this. i meant it when i said i still wanna be friends. i know not now, it would be too hard on both of us, but someday. this hurts me really bad, but i know i did what i had to, i just wish i didnt do it the way i did. and i know was insensitive, but you caught me off guard, and thats who i am. my hearts been beat up before, and those bruises turned to callouses. i never wanted to hurt you. i never wanted to make loving difficult for you. im sorry i didnt talk with you when i first started to realize i felt this way, which wasnt long ago at all, but waiting at all was wrong of me. on the other hand, im happy i didnt repeat myself and wait months. and im really happy that you're still hopeful. cause you're right. god has someone better in store for you. thakn you for the good times you gave me. thank you for always being there when you said you would. thank you for being a friend.