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i hate being sick.
i need to go to Vanessas and give her her christmas present. i really hope i get a digital camera for christmas so i can go take pictures of her. i have like 2 and were stoned so they look weird. i was dong some thinking today and like there are only two guys that i really trust. Jr and Christian. i guess Jr is a givin. ive known him for a long time. like a very long time. as long as ive known jessica actually. oh well. i really dont want to get older. my birthday is like two weeks after christmas and im going to be 17. that scares the living shit out of me. my mom told me i have no reason to be scared but i just cant help it. i also cant help the fact that no matter how hard i try, i wont be able to top my 16th birthday. i didnt really do anything tho. i went to a day spa with my mom and got massages and stuff which was absolutly wonderful and then hung out with jessica tommy and michael. so far that has been my best birthday. pathetic, i know but i was with two people i cared about dearly (jessica and michael) and someone who has listened to be bitch about their best friend (tommy). i had a good day/ week/ whole rest of that month really.
i cant wait till new years. hopefully this coming year will be better then the last. im not complaining about this past year by any means. ive made new friends i never thought i would. i loved. i was loved. i tried something new. and had many wonderful memories that will never be forgotten. there were some bad but you live and you learn. im a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and that you learn form every mistake. sometimes i need to learn a few more times then others but everntually i get it haha.
christian is coming over in a little while so i need to get ready. its 4 o'clock, im still in my pjs, which dont match, my hair is a total mess and so is my room for that matter. so it looks like i gots me some shit to do
xoxo michelle ( havent used "xoxo" in quite sometime. some ppl know what i mean ;) )