J'aime......
It couldn't have been love, if they dont even care anymore... because love doesnt just "go away". (props to Code)
ahhh... why that fuck do i feel happy and depressed all at once? its killing me. i dont know what to feel anymore?
fuck.
its hard to move on with your life. remembering the memories that were made, and never forgetting them. ever. looking through his old live journal... reading all the entries. most of them were about me.. and how much he cared for me. but most of all, loved. its wierd to think all of that came to a hult all of a sudden. it was a drastic change in my life that i never got used to yet. what is so different about him from anyone else? he liked me for me. he saw something in me that no one has saw before. he gave me a chance. he loved me... i dont think anyone else could get that close to me, ever. it feels like im missing something. not just him in my life, but i never got to say goodbye. it feels like this pain keeps dragging on each and every day. i need to fill in this missing piece. i need a closure. but i know that would never happen... what to do?..... blah.