Life's a Bitch
Well...Alex broke up with me on Thursday... Thursday night, about 9 pm. Guys suck, every single one, I swear. He told me I felt more like a good friend and it was weird for him, I don't get it... it takes him 2 and half months to figure out he thinks I'm a good friend?? Why did he tell me he loved me, if I was just a good friend? *sigh* I hate everything... I just want to die. Love is so over rated I hate it... It sucks, as much as I want to hate him I can't and as many things I can sit here and think of why I don't want him, I want him back. I didn't sleep at all thursday night therefore I failed my AP World Midterm... Ya know...he told me that he didn't want anything to change, that he still wants to sit with me in the morning and at lunch and come over.. and he doesn't want me to be upset, THAT I don't understand, how can you expect things not to change, when you just fucking changed everything?! UGHH.. well today I made progress, I haven't cried at all, and I took all his pictures off my walls, well atleast the ones that I didn't rip off the other night, I took all his letters and stuff he gave me and threw it in a box so I don't have to look at it then I had Cassy come over and we hung out, that was fun. I figured out its better to keep myself busy, because when I do nothing I think, and when I think I think about him and it upsets me. I think we'll be friends again eventually, maybe, it'll just take me a while to accept this and get over it. It's not exactly as easy as he is assuming its going to be, I can't just go back to the way it was before..but what ever, I'm tired so I'm going to go. I'll update more later, Bye.