a little hurt...
You know it's sad when school is the best part of your day
Away from all of the pain and memories of home
There is not much I can do or say
How do I even feel?
I'm still just a puppet that means nothing
Still just another face that you see every day
but don't bother or give a fuck about
I'm still trapped in the memories of unfaith
Still questioning my own existence
Still here for some strange reason
I am so sick of people
family... "friends"
Tonight, as I sat in my room alone... I looked down the neck of my bass
Still beautiful, almost new
As I realized I'd never have that shine in me anymore
Never will such beautiful sounds come from my voice
Tears rolled down slowly, but definite
Looking for a mirror to fulfil that I'm falling apart
That my dreams, an impossible jigsaw puzzle
Yet people continue to tell me that there's hope
Their ignorance hurts me even more
for who ever said anything about a "God" or "gods"
Who ever said that life was hard... was too blind to end it before his ego overtook him
Whatever gave the human race such complication shall be forgotten
Yes life is bullshit, and why didn't I end it when I could
I was 10 and still in Catholic School
Being brainwashed, yet my complicated mind didn't see this "light"
in time, people will follow me, but it is too late
Nothing can be believed
No one can be trusted
I can't continue, but I can't stop
However I got here
remember my face
the horrid glass shards
the mirror
broken
and broken
forevermore
Away from all of the pain and memories of home
There is not much I can do or say
How do I even feel?
I'm still just a puppet that means nothing
Still just another face that you see every day
but don't bother or give a fuck about
I'm still trapped in the memories of unfaith
Still questioning my own existence
Still here for some strange reason
I am so sick of people
family... "friends"
Tonight, as I sat in my room alone... I looked down the neck of my bass
Still beautiful, almost new
As I realized I'd never have that shine in me anymore
Never will such beautiful sounds come from my voice
Tears rolled down slowly, but definite
Looking for a mirror to fulfil that I'm falling apart
That my dreams, an impossible jigsaw puzzle
Yet people continue to tell me that there's hope
Their ignorance hurts me even more
for who ever said anything about a "God" or "gods"
Who ever said that life was hard... was too blind to end it before his ego overtook him
Whatever gave the human race such complication shall be forgotten
Yes life is bullshit, and why didn't I end it when I could
I was 10 and still in Catholic School
Being brainwashed, yet my complicated mind didn't see this "light"
in time, people will follow me, but it is too late
Nothing can be believed
No one can be trusted
I can't continue, but I can't stop
However I got here
remember my face
the horrid glass shards
the mirror
broken
and broken
forevermore