fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
So, New Years is gay. I was home by myself as my i-don't-know-what-you-would-call-him proceeded to get drunk with some people and ended up messing around with some girl. I knew that was going to happen. He said that he regrets it and he did it because he was drunk, but it still hurts very badly. Right now, I have no idea what him and I are right now. Tonight we made plans to talk and eat dinner because my parents are cooking for my Aunt and Uncle and there is going to leftovers and stuff. Im not sure if I want to talk to him or not. Im still slightly upset and the thought of touching him in anyway makes me sad, but hopefully it will go away. I told max to watch him, and he didn't. That makes me mad. When I get to work, there is going to be a lot of drama, I can see it. Hopefully hunter will let me leave when nick leaves tonight because hopefully we wont be busy. I need to talk to him and see whats going on. He says that he needs to see me in person to decide what happends, and I think I need to see him too. It's funny how things get so fucked up for no reason so fast. I miss him now, and I was being overdramatic just as much as he was acting stupid. We both fucked up, no matter what people say. I think we need to re-evaluate "us". Hopefully it will work out. I really want it to. I did my tarot this morning, and my future card was the four of Cups, which means Stability and Security in the romantic aspects of my life, so things should get better.. right?
51 things you didn't know about me
1. What is your middle name?
-March
2. Last person you kissed?
-Nick
3. What are you listening to right now?
-Atreyu -- The Crimson
4. Last two digits of your phone?
-01
5. Last thing you ate?
-Chips and salsa
6. Last person you hugged?
-Uncle Tommy
7. How is the weather right now? (what the hell does this have to do with me?)
-Sunny
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-Nick
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
-Eyes
10. Favorite type of food?
-Chinese
11. Do you drink?
-Occasionally
12. Do you smoke?
-Not really
13. Ever get so drunk you don’t remember what you did?
-Um.. yeah.
14. Hair color?
-Brownish?
15. Eye color?
-Hazel (im slightly upset so it hasn't gone back to normal yet)
16. Do you wear contacts?
-Glasses
17. Favorite Holiday?
-WINTEREENMAS BITCHES!!
18.Whens your Birthday?
-August 30th
19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
-yes
20. Last Movie you watched?
- The Producers
21. Last time you were at work?
-Last night
22. Last time you were out of state/City?
-Um.. dont remember.
23. If you could go back out with any of your ex's would you?
-no
24. Something unusual about you?
- My eyes change color when Im upset
25. Favorite breakfast food?
-PANCAKES!! :)
26. Favorite color?
-purple
27. What are you afraid of?
-being alone
28. If you could take a trip anywhere where would it be?
-japan
29. What books are you reading?
-The Perks of Being a Wallflower for the millionth time
30. Number of Piercings??
-7
31. Favorite movie?
-Um.. Im not sure
32. Favorite football team?
-Greenbay Packers
33. What were you doing before you filled this out?
-Talking to Darrius and updating my el-jay
34. Any pets?
-Jack and Jull (dogs) and Patch (cat)
35. AIM
-mercuryrsngxx
36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
-I am so suck of popcorn because I work at a movie theater
37. Dogs or cat?
-cats
38. Favorite Flower
-Dark red roses
39. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to?
-Who hasnt?
40. Are you single or taken?
-not sure at the moment
41.Have you ever loved someone?
-yeah
42. Who would you like to see right now?
-Nick
43. Are you still friends with your ex's?
-not really anymore
44. Have you ever fired a gun?
-Um.. and airsoft gun
45. Do you like to travel by plane?
-yeah
46. Right or left handed
-right
47. If you can be with someone right now, who would it be?
-mm.. Im not sure I guess
48. How many pillows do you sleep with?
-2
49. Are you missing someone?
-kind of
50. Do you have a tattoo?
-not yet, but my cousin Jimmy said he'll give me one when Im 18 :)
51. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
-Mornings dont exist in my book.. but I watch Adult Swim when I have time.
51 things you didn't know about me
1. What is your middle name?
-March
2. Last person you kissed?
-Nick
3. What are you listening to right now?
-Atreyu -- The Crimson
4. Last two digits of your phone?
-01
5. Last thing you ate?
-Chips and salsa
6. Last person you hugged?
-Uncle Tommy
7. How is the weather right now? (what the hell does this have to do with me?)
-Sunny
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-Nick
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
-Eyes
10. Favorite type of food?
-Chinese
11. Do you drink?
-Occasionally
12. Do you smoke?
-Not really
13. Ever get so drunk you don’t remember what you did?
-Um.. yeah.
14. Hair color?
-Brownish?
15. Eye color?
-Hazel (im slightly upset so it hasn't gone back to normal yet)
16. Do you wear contacts?
-Glasses
17. Favorite Holiday?
-WINTEREENMAS BITCHES!!
18.Whens your Birthday?
-August 30th
19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
-yes
20. Last Movie you watched?
- The Producers
21. Last time you were at work?
-Last night
22. Last time you were out of state/City?
-Um.. dont remember.
23. If you could go back out with any of your ex's would you?
-no
24. Something unusual about you?
- My eyes change color when Im upset
25. Favorite breakfast food?
-PANCAKES!! :)
26. Favorite color?
-purple
27. What are you afraid of?
-being alone
28. If you could take a trip anywhere where would it be?
-japan
29. What books are you reading?
-The Perks of Being a Wallflower for the millionth time
30. Number of Piercings??
-7
31. Favorite movie?
-Um.. Im not sure
32. Favorite football team?
-Greenbay Packers
33. What were you doing before you filled this out?
-Talking to Darrius and updating my el-jay
34. Any pets?
-Jack and Jull (dogs) and Patch (cat)
35. AIM
-mercuryrsngxx
36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
-I am so suck of popcorn because I work at a movie theater
37. Dogs or cat?
-cats
38. Favorite Flower
-Dark red roses
39. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to?
-Who hasnt?
40. Are you single or taken?
-not sure at the moment
41.Have you ever loved someone?
-yeah
42. Who would you like to see right now?
-Nick
43. Are you still friends with your ex's?
-not really anymore
44. Have you ever fired a gun?
-Um.. and airsoft gun
45. Do you like to travel by plane?
-yeah
46. Right or left handed
-right
47. If you can be with someone right now, who would it be?
-mm.. Im not sure I guess
48. How many pillows do you sleep with?
-2
49. Are you missing someone?
-kind of
50. Do you have a tattoo?
-not yet, but my cousin Jimmy said he'll give me one when Im 18 :)
51. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
-Mornings dont exist in my book.. but I watch Adult Swim when I have time.