My life in a nutshell...
Hmm, where to start? Well lets see...I'm back at Oswego for the fall semester. Class started on Thursday the 30th of August. I start my teaching classes this semester, I've already had two. They don't seem like they'll be that bad, almost fun in a way, but they'll still probably suck. I start observing this semester as well but I haven't gotten my placement for that yet. That means I'll be going to Syracuse once a week to sit in a classroom with a teacher who doesn't even know I'm supposed to be there....woopie doo.
My Schedule is as follows:
Monday/Wednesday/Friday: Practical English Grammar from 10:20-11:15...and that's it. I'm hoping I'll get my placement for Friday afternoons.
Tuesday/Thursday are my busy days: Teaching Social Studies 11:10-12:30; Creative Writing Fiction Intermediate Level 2:20-3:40; Tuesdays I have School, Pedagogy, and Social Justice from 4:30-7:30 and on Thursdays I have Teaching Science from 4:30-7:30...so those days are fairly packed.
I'm hoping to get a job at the desk on top of my busy schedule just so I don't have too much time to myself and I'm not really alone...
...See the reason I'm doing all this is cause Joe's gone. He's at home this semester. I'm up in Oswego...without him...for the first time in 2 years. I don't know how I'm going to do it. He left today, actually about 20 minutes ago and luckily I'm not crying, if only cause I'm not letting myself cry. He'll be back Friday but I'm used to being in Oswego with him, not without him. Not to mention I don't really have any friends. I hardly even have a roommate...who's supposed to be my best friend here, yet all week she's been attached to her boyfriend at the hip. She can't even be away from him for 5 minutes without text messaging him. The only times she's been back without him is when he's at class or working, maybe when she showers but after that she's gone again. Which was fine, cause Joe was here, but now I'm going to be alone. I don't really have any other friends. I've spent all my time in the past 2 years with Joe instead of making friends, which at the time seemed like the right idea, what I wanted to be doing, but now I realize all I was doing was hurting myself. I have acquaintances, a good number of them, but nobody's really a friend, nobody I can really hang out with at night or whatever, which hopefully I can build those acquaintances into friendships but I'm not sure I can, it might already be too late to do that since they all already have their own group of friends. I wish I didn't live so far from home so that I could see the people I know are my friends. The people who I know are always there for me if I need them, the people I need right now yet CAN'T be there for me because I'm so fucking far away.
*Sigh* it's going to be an interesting semester...I just hope it FLIES by.
My Schedule is as follows:
Monday/Wednesday/Friday: Practical English Grammar from 10:20-11:15...and that's it. I'm hoping I'll get my placement for Friday afternoons.
Tuesday/Thursday are my busy days: Teaching Social Studies 11:10-12:30; Creative Writing Fiction Intermediate Level 2:20-3:40; Tuesdays I have School, Pedagogy, and Social Justice from 4:30-7:30 and on Thursdays I have Teaching Science from 4:30-7:30...so those days are fairly packed.
I'm hoping to get a job at the desk on top of my busy schedule just so I don't have too much time to myself and I'm not really alone...
...See the reason I'm doing all this is cause Joe's gone. He's at home this semester. I'm up in Oswego...without him...for the first time in 2 years. I don't know how I'm going to do it. He left today, actually about 20 minutes ago and luckily I'm not crying, if only cause I'm not letting myself cry. He'll be back Friday but I'm used to being in Oswego with him, not without him. Not to mention I don't really have any friends. I hardly even have a roommate...who's supposed to be my best friend here, yet all week she's been attached to her boyfriend at the hip. She can't even be away from him for 5 minutes without text messaging him. The only times she's been back without him is when he's at class or working, maybe when she showers but after that she's gone again. Which was fine, cause Joe was here, but now I'm going to be alone. I don't really have any other friends. I've spent all my time in the past 2 years with Joe instead of making friends, which at the time seemed like the right idea, what I wanted to be doing, but now I realize all I was doing was hurting myself. I have acquaintances, a good number of them, but nobody's really a friend, nobody I can really hang out with at night or whatever, which hopefully I can build those acquaintances into friendships but I'm not sure I can, it might already be too late to do that since they all already have their own group of friends. I wish I didn't live so far from home so that I could see the people I know are my friends. The people who I know are always there for me if I need them, the people I need right now yet CAN'T be there for me because I'm so fucking far away.
*Sigh* it's going to be an interesting semester...I just hope it FLIES by.