many times i felt like i was nothing
so i havent written in this.. in a while.
but update on the crazy things that have been going on.
my dad went to vietnam to visit his family there
he came home last week depressed. not happy to see us.
but depress.
he told me that my grandfather is in the hospital, and he's slowly dying.
even if i dont know him that much, i've met him, and i've loved him.
he was admitted into the hospital couple days before by dad left
he was just ill. but then he became paralyzed.
i asked my father what was wrong with him..
but my dad told me that he doesnt know how to explain in english.
that made me feel rotten about myself.
if only i continued to live in hawaii, then maybe i'll know what's going on.
i used to hate not being americanized with i was little
and i just feel so spoiled.
i dont even know how to speak my own language.
i hate that.
little things here and there, but i dont even know what the fuck is going on.
so next week on wednesday, my father, mother, and little brother is flying to vietnam
staying there for 3 weeks so my dad can say goodbye
and so my grandfrather can see my little brother again.
i feel so rotten. i cant describe.
Synthetic Chance, Never Lie Alone, The Breathing Process @ Maple Grove
i'll be there tonight.
but update on the crazy things that have been going on.
my dad went to vietnam to visit his family there
he came home last week depressed. not happy to see us.
but depress.
he told me that my grandfather is in the hospital, and he's slowly dying.
even if i dont know him that much, i've met him, and i've loved him.
he was admitted into the hospital couple days before by dad left
he was just ill. but then he became paralyzed.
i asked my father what was wrong with him..
but my dad told me that he doesnt know how to explain in english.
that made me feel rotten about myself.
if only i continued to live in hawaii, then maybe i'll know what's going on.
i used to hate not being americanized with i was little
and i just feel so spoiled.
i dont even know how to speak my own language.
i hate that.
little things here and there, but i dont even know what the fuck is going on.
so next week on wednesday, my father, mother, and little brother is flying to vietnam
staying there for 3 weeks so my dad can say goodbye
and so my grandfrather can see my little brother again.
i feel so rotten. i cant describe.
Synthetic Chance, Never Lie Alone, The Breathing Process @ Maple Grove
i'll be there tonight.