When I Fly Solo, I Fly So High...Don't Touch Me Now
Its 5 In The Morning And I Cant Sleep Even Though My Eyes Are Heavy.
I Have Been Living In Orlando A Year Now.
I Never Thought I Would Take This Route And Be Where I Am Today. I Need To Trust Myself More Often Because I Believe I Can Achieve Great Things If I Do.
Its Been A Roller Coaster Of A Year But I Know Every Bump In The Road Has Made Me A Better Person. The Megan From A Year Ago Wouldn't Recognize Me Now.
The Experiences I Have Had Here Are Beautiful. I Appreciate Everyone Who Has Helped Me In This Journey.
Graduation Is 3 Months Away. I Hate Not Knowing Exactly Where I Am Going To End Up. I Hate Wanting Something So Bad It Hurts But Having To Live With The Reality That It May Not Happen.
New York Is Going To Be My Goal. It Would Be Nice To Be Back On The East Coast, By Home, Officially.
I Can't Move Back To Indiana, Not After How Much I Have Grown. I Feel Like I Would Fall Back Into Old Tendencies With The Same People And Become Stuck Again.
June And July Have Been The Hardest Months I Have Had Here. I Wonder How The People Closest To You Can Hurt You So Much Without Remorse.
The First Five Months In Florida I Dealt With What I Had Left. I Finally Was At Peace With Everything And Embraced The Change. I Know It Was All For The Best.
Everything Was Fine Until June. My Parents Officially Filed For Divorce. I Never Thought It Would Effect Me Like It Has. It Has Hardened Me So Much. Its Brought Up Old Wounds That Are Difficult To Deal With. I Am Done Reaching Out Though, Its Not My Job.
A Few Months Ago Someone Came Back Into My Life Who I Had No Contact With For A Long Time. I Trusted This Person And Did Everything In My Power To Get Us Back To Where We Used To Be. The Emptiness I Feel Right Now Because Of Him Kills Me. I Am Done With The Disappearing Act. If He Loves Me As Much As He Says He Does He Would NEVER Do What He Does To Me. Partially, Its My Fault. I Always Cave And Forgive. I Don't Mean To Him What I Used To...I Probably Never Meant Much Though. His Promises Mean Nothing. He's Been My Best Friend For 5 Years But I Don't Think There Is Any Bouncing Back From This. I Should Have Caught On To The Pattern A Long Time Ago.
Everything That Has Brought Me Down Has Been Ties To Indiana Honestly. Florida Has Been A Lifesaver.
I Have Met Some Incredible People Here. It Has Renewed My Belief In Friendship.
I Learned How To Love Again. I Learned How To Give My Heart To Someone.
For The Last Year I Dated People Just To Feel Something, Anything. I Was Trying To Fill A Void That Someone Had Left. I Was A Mess And I Know It.
I Have Always Been Closed Off. I Am Not Much For Feelings. Thats Been My Issue In The Past, I Cant Open Up And It Causes Problems. Everyone I Have Been With I Have Held Myself Back.
For The First Time, Ever, I Think I Let Go A Bit. It Was Nice To Feel Wanted And Feel Loved. Something Just Felt Right.
Its Just Such A Complicated Situation.
I'm Just Grateful Someone Made Me Feel Again.
On That Note....I Have Class In A Few Hours.
Goodnight.
I Have Been Living In Orlando A Year Now.
I Never Thought I Would Take This Route And Be Where I Am Today. I Need To Trust Myself More Often Because I Believe I Can Achieve Great Things If I Do.
Its Been A Roller Coaster Of A Year But I Know Every Bump In The Road Has Made Me A Better Person. The Megan From A Year Ago Wouldn't Recognize Me Now.
The Experiences I Have Had Here Are Beautiful. I Appreciate Everyone Who Has Helped Me In This Journey.
Graduation Is 3 Months Away. I Hate Not Knowing Exactly Where I Am Going To End Up. I Hate Wanting Something So Bad It Hurts But Having To Live With The Reality That It May Not Happen.
New York Is Going To Be My Goal. It Would Be Nice To Be Back On The East Coast, By Home, Officially.
I Can't Move Back To Indiana, Not After How Much I Have Grown. I Feel Like I Would Fall Back Into Old Tendencies With The Same People And Become Stuck Again.
June And July Have Been The Hardest Months I Have Had Here. I Wonder How The People Closest To You Can Hurt You So Much Without Remorse.
The First Five Months In Florida I Dealt With What I Had Left. I Finally Was At Peace With Everything And Embraced The Change. I Know It Was All For The Best.
Everything Was Fine Until June. My Parents Officially Filed For Divorce. I Never Thought It Would Effect Me Like It Has. It Has Hardened Me So Much. Its Brought Up Old Wounds That Are Difficult To Deal With. I Am Done Reaching Out Though, Its Not My Job.
A Few Months Ago Someone Came Back Into My Life Who I Had No Contact With For A Long Time. I Trusted This Person And Did Everything In My Power To Get Us Back To Where We Used To Be. The Emptiness I Feel Right Now Because Of Him Kills Me. I Am Done With The Disappearing Act. If He Loves Me As Much As He Says He Does He Would NEVER Do What He Does To Me. Partially, Its My Fault. I Always Cave And Forgive. I Don't Mean To Him What I Used To...I Probably Never Meant Much Though. His Promises Mean Nothing. He's Been My Best Friend For 5 Years But I Don't Think There Is Any Bouncing Back From This. I Should Have Caught On To The Pattern A Long Time Ago.
Everything That Has Brought Me Down Has Been Ties To Indiana Honestly. Florida Has Been A Lifesaver.
I Have Met Some Incredible People Here. It Has Renewed My Belief In Friendship.
I Learned How To Love Again. I Learned How To Give My Heart To Someone.
For The Last Year I Dated People Just To Feel Something, Anything. I Was Trying To Fill A Void That Someone Had Left. I Was A Mess And I Know It.
I Have Always Been Closed Off. I Am Not Much For Feelings. Thats Been My Issue In The Past, I Cant Open Up And It Causes Problems. Everyone I Have Been With I Have Held Myself Back.
For The First Time, Ever, I Think I Let Go A Bit. It Was Nice To Feel Wanted And Feel Loved. Something Just Felt Right.
Its Just Such A Complicated Situation.
I'm Just Grateful Someone Made Me Feel Again.
On That Note....I Have Class In A Few Hours.
Goodnight.