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Well, I decided to bare it all. You all get to find out about the Ashley and I thing. I mean, I did care for her, I did like her. I would never talk a untruthful bad word about her. I have factual statments to back up everything between us. But I'm a bad person, and she can spread things about me, which I even openly admit to being true. So, here comes to cold hard truth.
I have to warn you, some of you may not like me after what I say. But if you don't, that is your opinion and just comment and tell me that. I would love to know.
Alright, so me and Ashley met at the mall threw my friend Trevor. They had been dating for a few months and had a good relationship. When I met her though they had been fighting. I talked to her, I did like her but I didn't think I would date her. Well, we talked on the phone a few times, which eventually leaded to one night were we had "phone sex", which involved me saying the word "now", and other terms in a agressive manner.
I asked her out but was put off because she was still dating Trevor. Well, we talked alot on the phone after that, and slowly talked. It seemed like we would get together and date once they broke up. They broke up and I didn't want to do much because she just broke up with a friend. Well he said I could so I was going to. I found out that she was dating another friend of mine, Matt Proper. Well, I got mad, and yeah. I mean, it seemed like we would get together.
I got over it and we were friends. She broke up with Matt, and we dated. We dated on and off for awhile, as she dated other guys. The main one I'm thinking of right now is Andrew "Lifeguard" Kodish. She dated him, but at the same time, would still have sex with me. I mean, that makes me pretty shitty that I knew they were going out, and still had sex with her. And I'm not blaming it on just her, I did it freely, it wasn't forced. And it had been a few times. There was also one night where me and Andrew stayed the night and somehow a three some thing was brought up.
So for the next few months it was just mainly me and her, and we would have sex and watch a movie basically. That would be our days. We went to a beach house down in New Jersey, hungout there and did it even. Every thing seemed to be good. She called me Emo, and stuff like that which I knew she thought I was, but I was content. I really did like her.
Well, towards the end of this stuff we would hangout, but it decreased a bit. She seemed to be getting bored of me. We went to concerts anymore. She started getting into smoking pot more. I had no problem if she did, that was her choice. It seemed like she got bored with me. Hell, I'm bored with me. The last few weeks we hung out, around the date of December 12th.
Now, none of this was made up or anything. It is all factual. I will be writin in things that were wrote in my journal. Even scanning it and showing it you all.
So today at the mall I was talking with Amanda and Karissa. Amanda looked at Ashley as she was walking down the hallway at the mall, and asked what her name was. I responded with Ashley. Amanda said "She reminds me of Dave. Each time I saw her I thought it was Dave." So, I say to Amanda, "Christian Cichy," for some people see Christian-like looks in Ashley, I guess. I don't see it, however.
So someone in Ashley's group told her I was tlaking about her or something. So she walked over and seemed a bit offended or something and asked if I said something. I repated in a soft monotone voice, "Amanda said you reminded her of Dave, and I said about how people thought you looked like Christian." She said something and mentioned about not talking about her. So I plainly said "Go suck a dick." She was offended and walked off with her entourage to FYE or wherever.
Now, that is all the dead truthful facts. The only thing I ever really said about her, was that I have a bit of reason not to like her because she had sex with someone a week after we broke up. The she had only started talking to alot more that week. Other then that I didn't do anything.
Now, the only other time I said something big or bad to her was online. We were talkin and she was saying how she couldn't talk to me because she I was a downer and just made her depressed. Now well talking to her, I said that I wasn't a downer, and I was just really relaxed. I also said I'm sorry that I didn't fake confidence and try to be stuff I wasn't.
So yeah that is what happened with us. I didn't do anything wrong, and really wish we could still be friends. I just figured this had to be said. What I'm really glad about is that people must hate them selves alot, if they want to talk about me. I'm blunt about anything I feel, and I agree what was said. Someone said about "This is the Jon that Ashley talks about." So I found out she's going out saying about how I'm ugly and annoying. Thank god for people not liking me, but at the same time, liking me enough to spread rumors that I even say are true.
So, yeah. That's what I felt had to be said. Read it and have fun.
Jon.
XXX.
Straightedge.
Edit: I also forgot to mention around August 8th, Ashley was dating both me, and another girl. Her name was Katrina. I'm not sure what her last name is though. She had come to the mall a few time, and tryed dating Pat. So, that happened for awhile where she dated both of us.
I have to warn you, some of you may not like me after what I say. But if you don't, that is your opinion and just comment and tell me that. I would love to know.
Alright, so me and Ashley met at the mall threw my friend Trevor. They had been dating for a few months and had a good relationship. When I met her though they had been fighting. I talked to her, I did like her but I didn't think I would date her. Well, we talked on the phone a few times, which eventually leaded to one night were we had "phone sex", which involved me saying the word "now", and other terms in a agressive manner.
I asked her out but was put off because she was still dating Trevor. Well, we talked alot on the phone after that, and slowly talked. It seemed like we would get together and date once they broke up. They broke up and I didn't want to do much because she just broke up with a friend. Well he said I could so I was going to. I found out that she was dating another friend of mine, Matt Proper. Well, I got mad, and yeah. I mean, it seemed like we would get together.
I got over it and we were friends. She broke up with Matt, and we dated. We dated on and off for awhile, as she dated other guys. The main one I'm thinking of right now is Andrew "Lifeguard" Kodish. She dated him, but at the same time, would still have sex with me. I mean, that makes me pretty shitty that I knew they were going out, and still had sex with her. And I'm not blaming it on just her, I did it freely, it wasn't forced. And it had been a few times. There was also one night where me and Andrew stayed the night and somehow a three some thing was brought up.
So for the next few months it was just mainly me and her, and we would have sex and watch a movie basically. That would be our days. We went to a beach house down in New Jersey, hungout there and did it even. Every thing seemed to be good. She called me Emo, and stuff like that which I knew she thought I was, but I was content. I really did like her.
Well, towards the end of this stuff we would hangout, but it decreased a bit. She seemed to be getting bored of me. We went to concerts anymore. She started getting into smoking pot more. I had no problem if she did, that was her choice. It seemed like she got bored with me. Hell, I'm bored with me. The last few weeks we hung out, around the date of December 12th.
Now, none of this was made up or anything. It is all factual. I will be writin in things that were wrote in my journal. Even scanning it and showing it you all.
So today at the mall I was talking with Amanda and Karissa. Amanda looked at Ashley as she was walking down the hallway at the mall, and asked what her name was. I responded with Ashley. Amanda said "She reminds me of Dave. Each time I saw her I thought it was Dave." So, I say to Amanda, "Christian Cichy," for some people see Christian-like looks in Ashley, I guess. I don't see it, however.
So someone in Ashley's group told her I was tlaking about her or something. So she walked over and seemed a bit offended or something and asked if I said something. I repated in a soft monotone voice, "Amanda said you reminded her of Dave, and I said about how people thought you looked like Christian." She said something and mentioned about not talking about her. So I plainly said "Go suck a dick." She was offended and walked off with her entourage to FYE or wherever.
Now, that is all the dead truthful facts. The only thing I ever really said about her, was that I have a bit of reason not to like her because she had sex with someone a week after we broke up. The she had only started talking to alot more that week. Other then that I didn't do anything.
Now, the only other time I said something big or bad to her was online. We were talkin and she was saying how she couldn't talk to me because she I was a downer and just made her depressed. Now well talking to her, I said that I wasn't a downer, and I was just really relaxed. I also said I'm sorry that I didn't fake confidence and try to be stuff I wasn't.
So yeah that is what happened with us. I didn't do anything wrong, and really wish we could still be friends. I just figured this had to be said. What I'm really glad about is that people must hate them selves alot, if they want to talk about me. I'm blunt about anything I feel, and I agree what was said. Someone said about "This is the Jon that Ashley talks about." So I found out she's going out saying about how I'm ugly and annoying. Thank god for people not liking me, but at the same time, liking me enough to spread rumors that I even say are true.
So, yeah. That's what I felt had to be said. Read it and have fun.
Jon.
XXX.
Straightedge.
Edit: I also forgot to mention around August 8th, Ashley was dating both me, and another girl. Her name was Katrina. I'm not sure what her last name is though. She had come to the mall a few time, and tryed dating Pat. So, that happened for awhile where she dated both of us.