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feeling out of sorts lately, not like that is odd for me or anything.
i need to devote more time to me. like, i am a loser and spend alot of time alone, but not doing things that i enjoy. (besides sleeping. i enjoy that mucho). i started reading a book a couple weeks ago, and am not yet finished (will probably finish tonight). its an excellent book (possible side effects by augusten burroughs), and usually if i am drawn in by a book i will finish it in an evening or two. ugh. i am lame.
i love my puppy. just thought i'd add that in incase you forgot.
went to a show recently in columbus. mindless and birthday massacre. it was ok. nice to get out. but it made me realize how much i have changed in the last couple years. i always dwell on how i miss the excitement of my more crazy years, but i am just not the same person that i was before. honestly i have no idea who i am now. i want to work on that, im just not exactly sure how to go about it. (also made me realize that i have major RAGE issues, like, i knew i had them before, but a drunkard went plowing through me and my peeps, and i got VIOLENTLY angry and seriously wanted to beat the shit out of her. i started to walk after he and stopped myself. but my adrenaline was running so bad, all i wanted to do was punch someone in the face. odd.)
i want that feeling back. you know, that feeling when you were a teenager, when you would get all excited about going out with your friends. like when you could go somewhere that you could smoke cigarettes and flirt with boys. or hang out at the "cool" coffee shops or hang out at the local dennys....lame stuff like that, but always pumped to do it. i NEVER get that feeling anymore. i am always thinking about how i'd rather be sleeping, eating, or hugging my dog. or doing laundry. ugh. i am lame.
my dog is sniffing around like a crazy snorting pig. she does that sometimes.
and i am at that point in my life, where i am realizing who my real friends are. it doesnt have to do with how much you see each other, it has to do with the attitude you have towards each other. i am over relationships that are judgmental, competitive, or needy. i like people who you may only get to talk to once a month, but genuinely care about how you are doing. i miss intellectual conversations. for real.
speaking of, i am going to miss jessica! ya you! lol (i need to get your shoes back to you, and i sware i didnt pee on them!)
oh ya, and on my list of things that i am over, is drama. none here please. thanks.
i need to devote more time to me. like, i am a loser and spend alot of time alone, but not doing things that i enjoy. (besides sleeping. i enjoy that mucho). i started reading a book a couple weeks ago, and am not yet finished (will probably finish tonight). its an excellent book (possible side effects by augusten burroughs), and usually if i am drawn in by a book i will finish it in an evening or two. ugh. i am lame.
i love my puppy. just thought i'd add that in incase you forgot.
went to a show recently in columbus. mindless and birthday massacre. it was ok. nice to get out. but it made me realize how much i have changed in the last couple years. i always dwell on how i miss the excitement of my more crazy years, but i am just not the same person that i was before. honestly i have no idea who i am now. i want to work on that, im just not exactly sure how to go about it. (also made me realize that i have major RAGE issues, like, i knew i had them before, but a drunkard went plowing through me and my peeps, and i got VIOLENTLY angry and seriously wanted to beat the shit out of her. i started to walk after he and stopped myself. but my adrenaline was running so bad, all i wanted to do was punch someone in the face. odd.)
i want that feeling back. you know, that feeling when you were a teenager, when you would get all excited about going out with your friends. like when you could go somewhere that you could smoke cigarettes and flirt with boys. or hang out at the "cool" coffee shops or hang out at the local dennys....lame stuff like that, but always pumped to do it. i NEVER get that feeling anymore. i am always thinking about how i'd rather be sleeping, eating, or hugging my dog. or doing laundry. ugh. i am lame.
my dog is sniffing around like a crazy snorting pig. she does that sometimes.
and i am at that point in my life, where i am realizing who my real friends are. it doesnt have to do with how much you see each other, it has to do with the attitude you have towards each other. i am over relationships that are judgmental, competitive, or needy. i like people who you may only get to talk to once a month, but genuinely care about how you are doing. i miss intellectual conversations. for real.
speaking of, i am going to miss jessica! ya you! lol (i need to get your shoes back to you, and i sware i didnt pee on them!)
oh ya, and on my list of things that i am over, is drama. none here please. thanks.