Oct 04, 2005 15:33
What the hell, am I such a horrible fucking guy for stepping down and letting Sean take care of Kat for me? Until I can get my shit together and guarantee that I will be clean and sober?! She even said herself that she didn't want me around Kat if I'm using and drinking! So when I try and accept it and do the noble thing, I get fucking reamed out!
What is going on here?? What do you honestly want me to do Manny?? Be drunk, come over, hold her and drop her on her head?? Do you want me to take that kind of chance?? I can't promise that I'm not going to drink anymore, yeah, I'm trying my damnedest to not to, but right now I can't promise anything.
Why cant you see that?!? I'm not trying to walk away from her or you! I'll be more than happy to help support her, I'll buy the diapers, formula, take her to the doctor.. WHATEVER it takes! But come on! If you're willing to take the risk, fine. I'll be there like you want me to. If something was to happen, you'd blame me and get so pissed off at me, when the whole situation would have been avoided.
You know what Manny? Talk to me when you stop being so blind sighted and drunk. Give me a call and we'll talk it out.. Maybe once you sober up, you'll see it from my POV, even if a little bit.