{Can I swallow this bottle whole? So this pain in my head can forget your face
Blah, i should be in bed, but i cannot sleep once again. College is going great, very fun and stuff. Uhm theres a fire drill today heh that was kinda cool. I fell asleep at 4 and didnt wake up til 8, because the past couple of nights i dont sleep. I think of everything. Its not fun. I miss talking to tom. And last night i had a dream about danny, just outa no where. It was weird though like i saw him he was at my house i think, and we were talking and i told him that i missed him and blah blah blah. He said he missed me too and stuff, i felt happy. He had a gf, but she was moving to CA in a couple of days and they were gona break up then or something and we were going to get back together. It felt so real. I woke up and was like oh it was just a dream. Then today i couldnt help but keep thinking about it. My mind wasnt there today lol I hopped a curb coming out of college, felt really really dumb. I really need a life. Its weird I dont have many close friends just brandy. I think that since amanda, i havent been able to trust someone completely (i know you say i can trust you brandy) i just feel like im gona become close with someone then they're going to drop me like amanda did.
I need to take some nyquil. I really shouldn't because i might become addicted to it or something, but i need sleep tonight. Ick, almost killed myself swallowing them. Meh. I need some kind of excitment in my life. A guy or something. I hate following melissa and clavon around, or brandy and josh around (at college) It just gets old and im tired of it. Though there is this extremly hot, and great guitar player at lunch, im in love. But he has a gf. Meh.
I found this box that i have all my old photos in from last year or so, when i hung out with manda a lot and stuff. Oh and pictures from hfstival 2003, with danny. Heh those were some great times, especially that nasty ass beer. And melissa and me going on like 2 hours of sleep b/c work was mean and made us stay really late the night before, god i remember that whole day everything that happend. why can't i just be happy with things? Why does everyone that i love leave me? Meh i guess im just not worth it or something :/
L8r dayz
I need to take some nyquil. I really shouldn't because i might become addicted to it or something, but i need sleep tonight. Ick, almost killed myself swallowing them. Meh. I need some kind of excitment in my life. A guy or something. I hate following melissa and clavon around, or brandy and josh around (at college) It just gets old and im tired of it. Though there is this extremly hot, and great guitar player at lunch, im in love. But he has a gf. Meh.
I found this box that i have all my old photos in from last year or so, when i hung out with manda a lot and stuff. Oh and pictures from hfstival 2003, with danny. Heh those were some great times, especially that nasty ass beer. And melissa and me going on like 2 hours of sleep b/c work was mean and made us stay really late the night before, god i remember that whole day everything that happend. why can't i just be happy with things? Why does everyone that i love leave me? Meh i guess im just not worth it or something :/
L8r dayz