whats the point
well i have officially had a bad day. sam asked me to hang, so did veronica. i just...dont have the mental or physical energy to. i dont kno what is wrong with me. i mean, im not even mad anymore, im just so tired. i have reached a point to where all i want to do is cry. no. not cry. all i want to do is sit. next to someone. they kno what im thinking, and i kno what they are thinking. thats all i want. to be...JUST SIT...with someone who understands me. i mean, i kno my friends care about me. but they dont understand. some of them understand bits and pieces, but not all of it. only some of them, i would tell what i really feel. and i dont even have the strength to do that. and god do i want to. but i cant. i dont want to do anything anymore. im so...i guess i have reached a point that is a mixture of mass hysteria, depression and....peace? yes, peace. i dont even kno what i want. i dont want anything but to be with someone who knows all i am going through. and at this point, no one knows. and only some will ever kno. because i dont trust ery many people. actually, at this point in time, i trust 4 people. maybe 5. no, 4. thats it. i am going to hell for saying i dont trust my family, and i dont. i dont like to talk to my family about anything, except like joke, they are like friends who only laugh. idd rather have friends i could cry with, rather than laugh with.