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its not the fact that I let you go that was eating me up alive.
it was more the fact that you left when I was ready and that you weren't here to experience the things I wanted to experience with you.
the fact that my mom said she thought you were the boy she thought I was going to fall in love with meant so much more than anything you ever said and meant or said and lied about.
the fact that you're still holding on doesn't affect me anymore because that's exactly what you did with the others and look how they turned out.
and also the fact that this is really over its a bittersweet feeling... but I can deal with it.
I honestly with all my heart hope this was exactly what you wanted.
I hope it doesn't eat you up alive like it ate me.
I hope you didn't do this because you felt alone without your friends because "friends leave people change and life doesn't stop for anyone"
I don't want to go clubbing anymore
honest reason why I went was to see you
now that I don't care theres no point in using pretty dresses and going home exhausted and mad at the fact that you're so stupid.
I do wish this haunts you.
m is done being for me.
this M is long way gone.
you are never going to be how you were before
well, me neither.
I told you secrets... well this is my last one.
im not sorry anymore.
it was more the fact that you left when I was ready and that you weren't here to experience the things I wanted to experience with you.
the fact that my mom said she thought you were the boy she thought I was going to fall in love with meant so much more than anything you ever said and meant or said and lied about.
the fact that you're still holding on doesn't affect me anymore because that's exactly what you did with the others and look how they turned out.
and also the fact that this is really over its a bittersweet feeling... but I can deal with it.
I honestly with all my heart hope this was exactly what you wanted.
I hope it doesn't eat you up alive like it ate me.
I hope you didn't do this because you felt alone without your friends because "friends leave people change and life doesn't stop for anyone"
I don't want to go clubbing anymore
honest reason why I went was to see you
now that I don't care theres no point in using pretty dresses and going home exhausted and mad at the fact that you're so stupid.
I do wish this haunts you.
m is done being for me.
this M is long way gone.
you are never going to be how you were before
well, me neither.
I told you secrets... well this is my last one.
im not sorry anymore.