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Not sure where to start sooo here I go.
I'm tired of a lot of things. I just want to relax I guess. I'm tired of fighting but want to keep training. I'm tired of stupid people, I don't mean to be speaking so vaguely but this isn't about anyone in particular just people in general. I saw this ad for some UFC fighter and it made me realize exactly how much I resent those people and I'm starting to resent the type of people that fall into that. I'm just growing tired of it I guess. I don't know, I just feel like theres so much more out there but its always overlooked. I tried talking to Becky about some of this and she said I should write about it because it could help. Shes pretty awesome and I really don't appreciate her enough. I'm actually kind of an idiot in a lot of ways, especially lately. My mind has been everywhere and focusing on all the wrong stuff. I feel like I'm slacking in a lot of things (school, relationships, training, work, friends).
I''m in love with this beat by Atmosphere.
I'm not sure what exactly I'm tired of I guess. Negativity, stupid people thinking and seeing in a straight line, and just unnecessary aggressiveness? I dunno, I just feel like Ilm moving past a lot of the things I used to think.
I really think I could sit and listen to this beat all night.
I've been feeling kinda depressed but contemplative lately. Not depressed like boo hoo everything. Just, you know, not like 100 % myself. But I mean who says I need to be off the scale all the time?
Friends are def appreciated right now.
I wanted to go home so I could hopefully see Levi and my mom but stuff came up and I had to stay at school. Oh well, heres hoping for Thanksgiving to come quick.
Things are going really well with Becky and thats saying a lot since its been a year. I'm just scared I'm going to mess things up.
I put it on repeat.
I'm felling behind in a few classes which is no good.
Becky is awesome to me and I can be a huge idiot sometimes.
(Note to self, find out why and whats wrong with me)
I'm working a lot more projects which excites me.
I saw the making of the trailer for Blue City, so freaking excited for that.
The apt is good, cold but good. Everyone gets along well so that makes me happy,
I'm in need of bro-ing down
Nothing good for wii, especially with Smash bros being delayed till Feb
Free games for the ds is awesome
We're in the middle of a music revolution which blows my mind.
I think my ipod is dead
I'm not sure if I want another one
I want to decorate my room. I also feel more creative lately and have been photoshopping pictures of panda and bears. I want to make stencils and spray paint things.
Things are really busy which is good and bad.
24 Hour film fest tomorrow/today stating at 9am.
I'm getting paid 150 to shoot a wedding for 3 hours tomorrow. Ill
1 year Anniversary with Becky in a couple weeks. Kind of nervous?
(I keep thinking of things that make me miss her and its really dumb. Like how I tell her she has bad breath and I turn around and shes got like 50 breath mints in her mouth and is trying to hide it. Basically I'm a jerk and shes amazing.)
This 24 hour film fest is going to kill me, so I gotta kill it first!
How's everyone else doing?
I'm tired of a lot of things. I just want to relax I guess. I'm tired of fighting but want to keep training. I'm tired of stupid people, I don't mean to be speaking so vaguely but this isn't about anyone in particular just people in general. I saw this ad for some UFC fighter and it made me realize exactly how much I resent those people and I'm starting to resent the type of people that fall into that. I'm just growing tired of it I guess. I don't know, I just feel like theres so much more out there but its always overlooked. I tried talking to Becky about some of this and she said I should write about it because it could help. Shes pretty awesome and I really don't appreciate her enough. I'm actually kind of an idiot in a lot of ways, especially lately. My mind has been everywhere and focusing on all the wrong stuff. I feel like I'm slacking in a lot of things (school, relationships, training, work, friends).
I''m in love with this beat by Atmosphere.
I'm not sure what exactly I'm tired of I guess. Negativity, stupid people thinking and seeing in a straight line, and just unnecessary aggressiveness? I dunno, I just feel like Ilm moving past a lot of the things I used to think.
I really think I could sit and listen to this beat all night.
I've been feeling kinda depressed but contemplative lately. Not depressed like boo hoo everything. Just, you know, not like 100 % myself. But I mean who says I need to be off the scale all the time?
Friends are def appreciated right now.
I wanted to go home so I could hopefully see Levi and my mom but stuff came up and I had to stay at school. Oh well, heres hoping for Thanksgiving to come quick.
Things are going really well with Becky and thats saying a lot since its been a year. I'm just scared I'm going to mess things up.
I put it on repeat.
I'm felling behind in a few classes which is no good.
Becky is awesome to me and I can be a huge idiot sometimes.
(Note to self, find out why and whats wrong with me)
I'm working a lot more projects which excites me.
I saw the making of the trailer for Blue City, so freaking excited for that.
The apt is good, cold but good. Everyone gets along well so that makes me happy,
I'm in need of bro-ing down
Nothing good for wii, especially with Smash bros being delayed till Feb
Free games for the ds is awesome
We're in the middle of a music revolution which blows my mind.
I think my ipod is dead
I'm not sure if I want another one
I want to decorate my room. I also feel more creative lately and have been photoshopping pictures of panda and bears. I want to make stencils and spray paint things.
Things are really busy which is good and bad.
24 Hour film fest tomorrow/today stating at 9am.
I'm getting paid 150 to shoot a wedding for 3 hours tomorrow. Ill
1 year Anniversary with Becky in a couple weeks. Kind of nervous?
(I keep thinking of things that make me miss her and its really dumb. Like how I tell her she has bad breath and I turn around and shes got like 50 breath mints in her mouth and is trying to hide it. Basically I'm a jerk and shes amazing.)
This 24 hour film fest is going to kill me, so I gotta kill it first!
How's everyone else doing?