Ugh...Life.
Thsoe of who who can truly buy a cd, sit down, listen to it from start to stop, I Love you. Those of you who can go to a show, sit, listen, watch, dance, etc. have have a true love, and be one, and feel spiritually connected with the music...I love you. Those of you who who listen to the bands you like ebcause their talent in your eyes is great, I love you. Those of you who look beyond the, "FUCK ALL YOU MOTHER FUCKERS WHO AREN'T EDGE" I love you. Those of you who will truly be at the next show, and the show after that, and a year later, at that show, I love you. Those of you who go to the shows for the "Scene Guys" and don't even listen to the music, have no sense for the music, really know nothing about actual instrumental music at all, I hate you. I hate you so greatly, that I want to vomit all over you. Being Hardcore is being different. Being hardcore is takign a stand, no matter how out numbered you are, for what you believe, not this bullcrap that's happening now a days. Half of these kids won't be here three months down the road.
Anywho, Yeah, lifes been grand. After a really long debate with myself, and after thinking about it really really hard....I've come to the conclusion that I don't really ever want a girlfriend ever again. I AM NOT GAY. I REPEAT. I AM NOT GAY. I just think there is more the life then "Like omg he dumped her I bet he likes me." Or the "I Can't live without pussy, dude." Well "Pussy" means nothing to me, I can wack off and be fine. Plus if it is God's way to set every person up, and have a special one person for you, then why not just wait for that person to come? Why not just stop the gay heart breaking, drama causing I like her, no I lik her, Man I bet I could get some pussy, man she's hot stuff, and just chill. That person will come for me, if not...that sucks, but I'm almost sure she'll pop up, and inside, that little voice will be like, "That's her." Right now all I need to do is focus on music - The band and drumming - That's truly what I need to do, instead of being distracted with the female body. For all those people out there who are probably going to be like BLA BLA BLA YOU THINK IM NOT HARDCORE BLA BLA BLA, yeah well whatever. That's how I feel. this is MY JOURNAL. Read it, Comment, do whatever tickles your little pickle, I could care less. Later.
Anywho, Yeah, lifes been grand. After a really long debate with myself, and after thinking about it really really hard....I've come to the conclusion that I don't really ever want a girlfriend ever again. I AM NOT GAY. I REPEAT. I AM NOT GAY. I just think there is more the life then "Like omg he dumped her I bet he likes me." Or the "I Can't live without pussy, dude." Well "Pussy" means nothing to me, I can wack off and be fine. Plus if it is God's way to set every person up, and have a special one person for you, then why not just wait for that person to come? Why not just stop the gay heart breaking, drama causing I like her, no I lik her, Man I bet I could get some pussy, man she's hot stuff, and just chill. That person will come for me, if not...that sucks, but I'm almost sure she'll pop up, and inside, that little voice will be like, "That's her." Right now all I need to do is focus on music - The band and drumming - That's truly what I need to do, instead of being distracted with the female body. For all those people out there who are probably going to be like BLA BLA BLA YOU THINK IM NOT HARDCORE BLA BLA BLA, yeah well whatever. That's how I feel. this is MY JOURNAL. Read it, Comment, do whatever tickles your little pickle, I could care less. Later.