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okay soo tonight and last night are just 1 big blurr put together
you already know about last night but ugh tonight. why do i do this shitt
i took kayla out tonight to get her mind off of her shit
we went to kris and kyles and a bunch of people showed up.. including BOYFRIEND CAPP! haha
gosh.. i ended up taking like 20 hits of duster.. and omg.. i am so effin dumb
went over to matts afterward.. and almost passed out when i was talking to james because of how much i did
i literally had to put the phone down .. hold on to the kitchen counter for support and have him sit me on the couch
i dont know why i did it.. it was just there and i was like. hey why not.. and didn't think about the consequences (story of my life, eh vic?)
i got to listen to him bitch me out because he is worried about me
he makes it seem like im out to get messed up every night when the reality is that i hardly EVER do any type of drug (other than the occasional maryjane) and hardly drink anymore with the MAD exception of last night (oh dear dont even get me started on that) but he makes it seem like im out of control when the reality is that i've gotten messed up maybe twice in the last month.. but it's also my last summer break before "real life" kicks in and kicks me in the ass
anyways.. i got home around 12ish and john calls me up... really needing someone to talk to and he knows i will always drop anything i am doing to be there for him without any hint of a sigh or a grunt
i cherish that kid, dude.. what a good guy and he really doesn't deserve this
so i told him to come on over.. and he just left.. and its about 3:30 morning
a-ya-ya
i didn't go to sleep last night so do not expect me to wake up if you call me unless kelsie comes over and gives me the dreaded morning hump.
so goodnight all
"achoo! why, bless you sir."
p.s. i have the coolest binky in the world
i stole it from bob though.. oops :)
hey.. it got me through tonight
p.s.s. i miss jason.. he needs to find his phone so i can get ahold of his ass
you already know about last night but ugh tonight. why do i do this shitt
i took kayla out tonight to get her mind off of her shit
we went to kris and kyles and a bunch of people showed up.. including BOYFRIEND CAPP! haha
gosh.. i ended up taking like 20 hits of duster.. and omg.. i am so effin dumb
went over to matts afterward.. and almost passed out when i was talking to james because of how much i did
i literally had to put the phone down .. hold on to the kitchen counter for support and have him sit me on the couch
i dont know why i did it.. it was just there and i was like. hey why not.. and didn't think about the consequences (story of my life, eh vic?)
i got to listen to him bitch me out because he is worried about me
he makes it seem like im out to get messed up every night when the reality is that i hardly EVER do any type of drug (other than the occasional maryjane) and hardly drink anymore with the MAD exception of last night (oh dear dont even get me started on that) but he makes it seem like im out of control when the reality is that i've gotten messed up maybe twice in the last month.. but it's also my last summer break before "real life" kicks in and kicks me in the ass
anyways.. i got home around 12ish and john calls me up... really needing someone to talk to and he knows i will always drop anything i am doing to be there for him without any hint of a sigh or a grunt
i cherish that kid, dude.. what a good guy and he really doesn't deserve this
so i told him to come on over.. and he just left.. and its about 3:30 morning
a-ya-ya
i didn't go to sleep last night so do not expect me to wake up if you call me unless kelsie comes over and gives me the dreaded morning hump.
so goodnight all
"achoo! why, bless you sir."
p.s. i have the coolest binky in the world
i stole it from bob though.. oops :)
hey.. it got me through tonight
p.s.s. i miss jason.. he needs to find his phone so i can get ahold of his ass